I hate my PTSD

[Psalms-46]

Between the nightmares and nightime panick attacks at night and body memories during the day, I'm to the end of myself. ✈️

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It's awful isn't it! The stuff that goes on with PTSD is just totally draining. I really hear that you're in it right now. Take good care of yourself and be very gentle and self loving.

[Lindyloo53 Volunteer]

I'm in the same place. I remind myself that to give in and up is joining the bastards! For this reason and sometimes for this reason alone I choose to put one foot in front of the other and go on. It's not always been this way I have had moments when the pain took over and I did dangerous things to kill it. I'm glad I'm still here to discover i don't have to face the whole world today I can take bite sized bits of it if I just keep putting that one foot in front of the other. Sometimes I have to dig very deep just to do this. And somedays that's all I can do.

[Psalms-46 in reply to Lindyloo53]

Thank you 👞👞👞

[jacksmom]

Right now, I am holding you in my heart, I feel your pain. For me, when it gets that painful, all I can do is sit, hold a pillow, stuffed animal, cry, and talked to my Higher Power, which I recognized is the Creator of the Universe. I tell Him all whats bothering me, I am raw and real. I journal, if I am able. Sometimes I drive (if safe) and listen to loud songs and scream and cry. But I always stay connected to my Creator God. I do believe that is only way I have gotten this far. Oh! and I text friends that I know will pray for me. I hope that helps a little. I underrstand that pain, it feels like it will never ever end and seems like nothing could possibly help. Thats why we humans need our Creator so very much., and we need each other...huge hugs to you...Lauralee

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[Psalms-46 in reply to jacksmom]

Thank you so very much. I wish that I could cry I'm just really overwhelmed at this moment and over tired. Thank you again. Hugs back to you.

[jacksmom]

Be still and know that He is God....

[GRUMPYA]

Me too, I hate it, I feel robbed by the cause of my trauma and I feel even more robbed by the PTSD. I've been diagnosed for a while now, and knew for a few years before that what it was, what I can tell you is that sometimes it isn't as bad. I've had spells when I was happy at work and able to put my fear behind me, it's just when other pressures build up the PTSD gangs up on me and joins forces with my enemies to make everything worse.

I hope yours gives you a break soon. You just have to ride the storm and normally it gets better, if it doesn't you need to get referred for treatment. If you are in the UK services are improving and you will normally have a short course of talking therapy to make you ready for EMDR which really does work.

I hope you find some peace