This morning I had somebody ring me to signposts me to the right therapy which I would need, to help me, after it had explained how I was feeling, I was told there is no magic pill I can have, and that what he advises is thst I refer myself to a diffrent organisation to ask for therapy . I felt quilty just being me, and vunerable. I don't want to ring this other organisation, as I don't feel up to it. The person who rang me said I am stopping myself from moving forward, although they don't know me from Adam. I explained about berevement and the person asked if I have grieved for my mother who died 2 years ago, i said I didn't know. All in all I feel worse than I did before, all I wanted was some help with my panic attacks , a doctor who I saw a few years back said I was suffering from PTSD , when I mentioned this to the person who rang me, they just carried on asking me questions. It puts me right off asking for help, I am so determined to try and help myself where I start is a nother matter.