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Hi. not much of a talker especially about feelings but right now it's too hard. Got diagnosed with C- PTSD and attachment disorder 3 months ago. Been numb most of my life and in the last year trauma after trauma got me to a suicidal position. Sleeping or eating is difficult sometimes impossible. Taking medication, hate it but without it I would not be here. My therapist is on vacation. She sent me to an EMDR therapist with my first visit last Friday while she is still away, it was a total disaster! I had a panic attack during the process after I took a chance to answer her question about my relationship with my husband, she diagnosed him to be bi-polar. She also found out what I do for a living and wanted to come to my showroom to see my products. I felt bad that I said anything to her and not comfortable to do business with her either. She said that I was not ready for EMDR..The rest of my day was really f-up. On our wedding anniversary last Thursday, with my husband had a situation involving cops. They showed-up in my showroom, it was humiliating and I got triggered since and totally shut down. I have to work because i am the breadwinner and God it's really impossible sometimes like now.

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  • Wow I am sorry! You are doing the right things though so I believe you will make it all the way up!

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  • Hi Dry Heat,

    I am so sorry for your experience, I am just about to do EMDR tomorrow, but with a trusted therapist I have had for 11 months. A person seeing you once should not diagnose you. C-PTSD and bi-polar symptoms are easily confused, That is why you need to have a trauma specialist. I was told I was borderline, bi-polar before, mainly from my mom, as she does not want to take responsibility for what she did to me. C-PTSD is a hard diagnosis as it is not recognized in the DMR, but do not let someone say your bi-polar after one session. You have the capability of healing, as I do. So do not give up. Really look at the meds you are taking, I went off meds a year ago. it was a a State program that prescribed them to me mainly to just not have to give me the therapy needed. I have to be honest here....the government should not run mental health....all they do is drug you up. C-PTSD can heal, but your neurons need the chance to reattach and fire. All drugs do is stunt it. Take folic acid, B 100, Fish oil and Emerger-C, Vitamin K, Vitamin D and calcium. I also take a probiotic and eat Activia, but this is on good days. It is hard to take pills on bad days. But, I would say 4 out of 7 are good.

    I shower hope on you. You deserve it.

    Mizpah,

    Jenn

  • Thanks Jen,

    She did not diagnose me with bi-polar. She diagnose my husband with it, she never met him. Thanks for your advice with the vitamins.

  • I'm so sorry.. I know that numb feeling.. Why, when after one trauma does more keep coming.. I consider myself a good person, but now fear even leaving my home.. Things keep happening I have no control of..

    Living like this is not living.. I do understand..

  • You might want to read about bad therapy vs good therapy on goodtherapy.org . Sounds as if your therapist has boundary issues. The site helped me understand what's appropriate for a therapeutic relationship.

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