hi everyone my month well has been the worst ever i lost my mum 2weeks ago the sadest day of my life but as with life and the way it goes it has come in a wave of terrible things happeneing my mum died on the thurs and on the next day my dad and myself came down with coughs we just put it down to being at the hosp at all funny hours and grief but my dad seem to get hit a little harder , the sat i took my little chiuaus round and came back home and my littlest pia jumped out of my arms and broke her leg on the hardwood floor i was so distressed shes in plaster now then by monday my dad got worse and the doctor gave him strong anti biotics by weds he was looking like my mum wanted to take him too! so i took him to the hospital and thats where hes been eversince! theyve found something on his lung too( extra stress !) in between all this my brother had to go in for a leg op so i have had to arrange a funeral by myself which ive never done in my life! registering the death arranging flowers organising caterers for the wake looking after my dads house and his little bird ! making descisions i felt far too immature to make really and also calling family all over the place to keep them in the loop! i havent really stopped and people keep telling me to slow down ! or il burn out! all this time i also havent been sleeping but today i feel the pains starting to come in , the thing im worreid about is that mums funeral is on monday and because ive kept going cause ive had to whats gonna happen to me on the day? ive had a couple of crys but no one really to cuddle me and tell me il be ok cause there is no one! im not feeling woe is me please dont think this its just that because my aunties say to me ive got to watch out cause of this burnout i dont know what there talking about? i feel ok atm keeping going and keeping my emotions under raps for everyone elses sake?