I'm so so sorry to do this to you guys,I've just come off the phone to the Samaritans. I woke up with a terrible panic attack at 4.30 that just won't go. Tried to fight it but I just couldn't. So thought I would ring Samaritans but I've ended up getting myself even more upset just talking about stuff. What is happening to me? I don't know what to do I honestly don't. I've tried the counselling and it's not helping yet. I don't feel like I can carry on with this life. What is the point? But I know when I come out of this panic I won't feel this bad. This virus I've got has really dragged me down. I just want this all to stop this feeling so unwell every day. I need someone to listen to give me some practical help,being so on my own is killing me literally. I'm so embarrassed I feel like this,I'm a very private person and I hate asking for help. I've got my 16 year old daughter here with me and I don't want to put any pressure on her. I'm so bloody frightened and I don't know where to go for help.