Good morning to my lovely family! I am, as you can see, alive and well (ish). Still in quite a lot of facial pain but much better than yesterday.
I waited for 2 hours last night huddled in a corner of the gp's waiting room holding my wheat bag to my face and quietly crying into it. The cleaners kept taking it back into the staff room and re-heating it up in their microwave for me bless them.
At 7pm i was called in to see a doctor and as hw came out into the corridor to greet me, he took one look at me and sprinted up the corridor to me. After explaning where the pain was, how long ive had it and so on he gently examined me looking at my mouth, ears etc and diagnosed just what Moffy had said...tri...neuralgia (cant remember for the life of me what it is!
Then came the crunch part i had been dreading. He asked me what meds i had taken that day.....after a pause he leaned forward very close to my face and said "Youve taken far too many meds havent you?" I started sobbing even more and nodded. He put his arm round me and asked me what i had taken and when. I told him and i told him how worried you all were and he gave me a little gentle telling off saying i should have listened to you and phoned an ambulance but i said i felt ok, a little woozy and sick but it did help the pain for a few hours. I did also point out that i havent taken anything else at all that day since then and he said that was good and because its been so long since i took them there wasnt really too much to do as i seemed ok but made me promise never to do that again but he said he totally understood where my thoughts were coming froma and its not uncommon for patients when they are in that much pain to throw sense out of the window and swallow allsorts because all they can think of is to stop the pain when its so severe but he was very calm and sympathetic which helped me relax a bit.
He then explained all about this tri...neuralgia and why it happens and what nerve is to blame in the face and he said this attack was classic. He asked me if i worked or needed to drive for the next few days and my OH said no. He gave me an injection in my arm and he said i would feel like a zombie but be pain free to give me a chance to sleep. He asked OH to watch me in the night and if hes concerned about me then to ring 999 regarding my earlier escapades.
He prescribed amitriptyline to work along side my gabapentin as i already on max daily dose for that and diazepam to take before i went to bed and also to be taken when the pain is bad again. He warned me that my face would still be painful this morning and by golly it is but its bearable, not like yesterday!
He has told me never to suffer like that again and this neuralgia can be treated at a+e easily and i could have been better a lot sooner but i said i didnt want anyone to think i had tried to take my own life i just need the pain to stop, i was literally offmy head with pain and i couldnt think about anyone or anything, just had to stop the pain, i told him i had blogged on here sasying if someone would hand me a gun i would have shot myself with out hesitiation and i actually think i meant it! Thats how muddled my brain was.
The doc and my OH were chatting away about why i have suddenly developed but i only caught bitsof it as i was starting to feel a bit woozy for the second time that day and we didnt come out of his room until 8pm, we had been with him an hour but luckily i was the last patient and 2 of the cleaning ladies were waiting outside to see how i was they were that worried about the pain i was in bless them!
Anyway, i came home and took the rest of the tablets as instructed and im not too sure what happened after that but i know i ended up in bed and it just knocked me out.
Today, i feel better but now as i write the pain is steadily getting worse againn but at least i have these meds to help me for now.
I just want to say a huge sorry for worrying you all yesterday, i wasnt thinking straight and taking meds like that is not something i would normally do. I cant believe now that i was that stupid...maybe thats the wrong word...desperate and out of control with that pain.
I am really touched that you really do care and that makes me feel humble and i want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your advice and taking the time to try to help me. Thanks to VG, LIbs, Moffy, Mary, and ayone else who replied and again, im so so sorry for causing you worry..i feel very foolish.
The pain is now getting quite bad again so i will stop rambling and warm up my trusty wheat bag and lie down.....Love you all....Charlii xx