Hi everybody hope you are all snug in bed on this frosty night!!
I am here moaning again sorry,but I have no other outlet grrrrrr 
Today I had to be up at 7 to get ready for hospital appointment to see a bowel surgion,after being in agony and bleeding like a pig for eight weeks or more....arrived in -3 conditions and no parking spaces . So my OH built my scooter and I went off to the dept; booked in and parked my little chariot only to be called straight away. The nurse said " Oh can you walk at all as there is not enough room for your scooter." " No I need to use this " so we get to the room and she says I need to park in the corridor,and walk to the room and sit on a chair. No help offered so I told her my husband would be here in a min;as I cannot dress or undress myself as I cant stand and bend. She then said she would help me if I needed it,and walked off into said room. She then realized I was not with her and came back out,and enquired if I needed help to get off the scooter too. I told her I need your support to get up and to walk please.
We got into the room and the surgion spoke to me then told her I needed to get on the couch,and lay on my back ,My Main problem is I cannot lift my legs as they are very heavy and my muscles don't work. So she helped me on to the bed....At this point I was concerned that my OH was not with me but the nurse said " Oh you will be OK I will help You ". I also cannot turn over on my side as I go dizzy and need help.....................I will not go into details but lets just say I thought I was in agony before but since the examination and the hauling about the pain before seems mild.
I called my daughter to let her know I was home,she just said she did not have time to talk as she was on her mobile and would call me later. I felt like I was bruised from the waist down to my thighs,even laying in bed did not help,and even a wee was painful. My daughter eventually called and said well mum at least you are now in the pipeline so to speak. (I have to go back for more tests and a biopsy. in feb: )
The Day got worse my Mother is in a home that we pay nearly 4 grand a month and now the money has run out and the home says the council only pay a small amount,so Mum has to move to a smaller room ,could I sort her things to move and by the way there
is a shortfall of 2 grand !! WHAT !!!
Called my daughter back after being on the phone to home council etc...and she said go on FB and ask my friend who has a van to help you...and don't worry it is Nan's debt not yours end of!! .........I thought Thanks a lot,as at the time I couldnt sit walk laydown or do anything...........................Just managed now to find the guy ,and explain who I am etc....
I just do not know what I could have done to have so much happen to me at the same time ,if I had to write down goods and bad ..the bad would def outway the good by a long
chore...tonight I feel very sad and lonly and I am sorry if I have garbled on and on but I am not sure how much more I can take!! My memory is so bad that at times I think I am going MAD because, My OH and my daughter tell me things and I just don't remember the situation at all !! and when I tell her things she says alright you have already told me that!!
Sorry again Virtual (((((((((((((((((Gentle Hugs )))))))))))))))))))) to you all I feel I could do with a hug,but they too are few and far between...well real ones !!
I am hoping to be more settled tomorrow.
Love and Light Rainbow x x
Total panic!
New Year ... New Me?
Hoovering up! What a pain.
I give up!!
