As I sit here all alone not tired again, as sleep is very poor at present, tears running down my cheeks I do wonder how long can I put up with this awful curse on my life. My family are falling apart and I feel this is all down to me not having the strength to be there for them like I have always been. I am my husbands carer he was diagnosed with Acromegaly in 1991 and retired off work in 1996, he had a stroke last year which has added to his illness.
The trouble is i had 2 operations in September which incapacitated me for a number of weeks allowing this awful curse to take over my body : ( Although I have been diagnosed for a few years I managed to hold everything together and a part-time job of 3 days a week , working on-call, nights and long shifts, I also walked my dog for an hour everyday. I truly believe your mental ability to control pain can work, obviously I did have the occasional day when it was a real struggle to move my body out of bed but I would and get on with it. Now i struggle to move, have not walked my dog, fall over on a regular basis and drop things for a pastime.
My family do not understand and are no support at all, I just wish I could turn the clock back 3 months and not of had the operations and therefore would still be living a relatively normal life. I do not know how i am going to manage Christmas as all I do is cry, not in front of any of them of course.
Sorry just had to have a moan!!!!!!