Need to have a moan....

[RhiRhi]

Afternoon all,

I apologise in advance but need to vent....

I've had an awful week, have literally slept the last 7 days. Have zero energy, constantly exhausted and in awful pain all the time! I really have had enough, this can't be how my life is going to be for the foreseeable future, surely?!?

I would lie to go back to work as have been off the last 19 months and prior to that I was off for 6 months due to hip replacement but my mind and body just won't get me out of bed let alone work...!

I hate myself even more than I previously have. I hate even more how I am now as I can't do anything, I miss seeing my friends and feel like I am a burden on them as I'm constantly miserable and in agony all the time, who wants someone like that around when they are wanting to have a good time. Just fed up I hope this isn't want my life is going to be like going forward...?

I feel very selfish feeling like this as my Bampi is dying and would give anything to be able to do something.

Any who, I've bored you all with my moaning, sorry!

Hope you're all doing ok and hope you have a good week x

[Rach1977]

Hi Rhi Rhi........ hey like jules said that is what this forum is for ( well one of the reasons)...RANTING. It's good to get things off your chest and even though you may only be typing to cyber friends we are all here for you......we understand!!!

I think everyone of us, whether they admit it or not has been in a very dark place at some point due to this illness.

When you get down it is so hard to see your way out of that dark hole. However you will get there. Are you on any anti depressants?

I had to admit defeat and went on prozac, I always thought I was stronger than anti depressants, however they do help if you are not on them....worth a go.

Have you ever had counselling? Again another thing I ever thought I would have, however I've had 5 sessions and wow, it does really help. You can sit there and talk about yourself and only you!!! The person is paid to listen and give advice and sometimes put a different perspective on things!!!

Just trying to think of ways to help.....if you don't like them or don't agree I won't be offended!!!!

I really hope that with this nice weather you will be able to see light at the end of the tunnel and your pain will decrease.

Wishing you all the best and we are always here to listen!!

Take care xx

[RhiRhi in reply to Rach1977]

Hi,

Thanks for your reply!

I take anti depressants at the mo, citalapram. They sort of help but then again sometimes I think my body is used to them?

I saw a counsellor about 2 ish years ago, I'm not very good at talking so it wasn't that great but I'm hoping who my doctor is now referring me can help more! X

[MissKittycat]

Sweetheart, I can only echo what Rach and Jules have said - I totally understand what you are going through. I lost a much loved uncle a while ago and this illness didn't help as I had to travel up and down the country to help family.... and I couldn't do much. You can only do what you can - even if its a phone call or a letter to let him know you're thinking of him x

I'm sending you lots of gentle hugs - you're not alone and I'm thinking of you x

[RhiRhi in reply to MissKittycat]

Hi, thanks for you reply!

So sorry about your uncle. Thanks for your advice, very kind x

[RhiRhi]

Hi,

Thanks for your reply!

I found info on here last week that people had posted that they found useful to give to friends to try and help them understand so I sent that to my friends in the hope it could explain things a lot better than I ever could?! Hoping to go see my Very Bestest Amigo tomorrow as she and her gorgeous baby always makes me smile x

[RhiRhi]

Hi,

Thanks for your reply!

I came across so info that somebody posted on here last week about what they wrote/used to try to explain to friends do I sent that to my friends in the hope it will explain thinks a lot better than what I ever could x

[Rach1977 in reply to RhiRhi]

Hey, that's great. i am sure you will get a positve result.

I was on citrilopram ( spelling??) and even thouh I upped my dose it didn't improve me depression. maybe you could ask to have a different anti depresssant?? xx

[RhiRhi in reply to Rach1977]

Hopefully!! I've tried two other anti depressants but they didn't work I find citalapram helps with panic attacks and anxiety so it's a bit of catch 22 x

[Rach1977]

Mmmmm, I think getting advice from your GP may be the best option .. he/she may come up with an answer?? Good luck, hope you have perked up a bit xx

[RhiRhi in reply to Rach1977]

Got an app next wed so hoping something comes out of it. Thanks for your advice x

[RhiRhi]

Babies def are! Thanks for your advice x

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Hi this is the place to moan we are all ears albeit computer ones !!! well that is awful i too have been off work since jan 2007 and i loved my job but there you go i have learned to accept that at the moment worlk aint gonna happen but not written it off completely. you say you dont see your friends is it because they dont come or you put them off coming if the latter is the case you should open up to them i done this few months ago i got so every thurs day i used tocatch up with my 2 best mates i would make an excuse that i could not make it then that crept into my family gatherings and that then crept into did not really go out anywhere it i got really like ahermit and did not do me any good why dont you invite them round for coffeee when you are all free and tell them everything and i mean everything and you may be surprised at their reaction afyter all you have just told all of us and we dont know you and we are all supporting you ???? love sdiddle x