Well what a horrible weekend....First I saw my Dr on friday who once again promised to refer me for physio ! only 5 weeks after he told me he had done it. He then said altho the steroid infection has now worn off ,I cant have anymore due to adverse side affects. ( when I had it I said does it have bad side affects and the guy said no )
After travelling to the Dr I was in lots of pain as I cannot walk let alone get in and out of a car. So I went to bed for the rest of the day!! and got up for my Tea but was not good.
Sat I woke to find I could not walk well at all. I honestly thought it could not get any worse.....but it did,my legs would not move and then I got really cold...so off back to bed till early evening.
My husband has PTSD and I have looked after him for 20 odd years ,and now he is having to look after me and he is not really well enough so said Dr has now organized the OT people to come in and sudgested we pay a carer to look after me or my husband will be ill again.....I feel so low like I am a burden to him!!....To add to this his son doesn't call and my daughter doesn't even try to understand and never called all weekend,when she eventually called she said "Oh whats up with you now ? you sound so misserable ,you need to think more possitive Mum. At least the Dr is doing something now and you will be having Physio in the next week or so !! " then went on to tell me in great detail how there are a lot of people worse off than I am and a lot younger !! I do know that but this is happening now to me ,if only she would try to understand.
Sunday was worse and today is not good but not being able to talk to anyone about all this
I decided to get on my computer and write it all down.....and now having read it I thought "Oh just delete it you are just moaning to people who have the same as you.".......I am sorry if this is a bit " Woe is me " but I just feel so alone in this illness as most of my so called friends have long gone..Proberbly not real friends at all.
Thanks to anyone who has read this and sorry it has gone on but I just needed to waffle and rant.
Looking forward to happier times x
Gentle Hugs to all