hi peeps, i know i dont post much, im mostly at work then coming straight home and going to sleep...im not working today as i have yet another OHS appointment...with another bleeping GP!
im working full time as a civil servant and on the whole the department have been good with the reasonable adjustments...im having a access to work assessment so i can get some ergonomic equipment and my sickness trigger points have been raised. \im alllowed disability leave...so on the whole its pretty good. However, i have 3 monthly appointments with the OH nurse. on my last visit she felt i was masking the severity of my illness...i have joint hypermobility syndrome as well as the fibro. i sometime take the odd days leave to break up runs of shifts and to give me two days off together....she feels this is masking the severity...DOH....i told her it is MANAGING IT not masking it. so the upshot is that she wants me now to have a assessment from a doctor...the rheumatologist is the expert in this field, they have all the info from him and i trust him, i like him and he is an EXPERT so why go and see another useless GP ??... what a waste of time and money. on the referral she said she felt i was jittery and anxious...really? you dont say? she knows i have JHS, we all know anxiety is comon in JHS jeeze its bad enough dealing with this stupid condition without the added stress of having to be evaluated again, prodded bended and poked..so i have to drive miles away to relay all the info they have already! i have a feeling im going to burst into tears there..i hate going to the doctors, try to avoid it i always get stressed, start sweating and feel shaky......i want to say...LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME DEAL WITH IT IN MY WAY...Im managing it, Im not costing you anything, losing you money so leave me alone! And, NO i dont want a cocktail of drugs, and no i dont want stupid CBT...sorry for rant...just sick of it.