so tonight

i am going to the fireworks well ill be in a car and not with everyone else but i will see them lol but i was just outside and its like so cold i think its away to snow i do want to go but i am really scared i am going to be cold but i don't wan't to let my friend down

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i let her down all the time to this is the first time she asked me to do anything in ages but hopefully i can do this because ill be in the car but i dunno as its really cold and i am in agony as it is xx

[rosewine]

Put your thermals on I have thermal long John's and matching top for such eventualities. Wear masses of layers and you could do a hot water bottle to take and a hot drink in a flask. Remember hat and gloves and a big scarf. Enjoy.xx🎆🎇🎊🎉x

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im going to take my hot water bottle and make sure iv got layers on xx

[DanielleGemma]

Take hot water bottles, gloves, hat, scarf, put on some extra socks as well as that helps! also take some snacks, that you can share with her, and a flask! Try and focus on the positive hun that you get to see your friend and it should help xxx

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i think it coz im so scared of going outside as i dont usually last long that whats wrong with me today but i have got all my jumpers 3 pairs of socks and that looked out and she got loads of snacks for us as were going with her daughter shes called me 3 times to just make sure im defo going i feel so bad if i dont xxx

[rosewine in reply to Hidden]

Don't over think it just look forward with joy and anticipation you will be fine.x

[Hidden in reply to rosewine]

i think this weekend has stressed me out and im now overthinking everything xx

[rosewine in reply to Hidden]

Oh bless it sometimes happens like that. Think of it as an adventure.x

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yeah i just dont have any fun anymore i feel like im losing myself because of my illness x

[rosewine in reply to Hidden]

Yes I think we go through horrible periods like this feeling we are actually losing ourselves. I know when I had to give up a job I loved and had done for years it seemed as though the bottom had dropped out of my world. Find it difficult as the group of friends who I see about every 6 weeks are all fit and are a lovely lot but it is difficult for them to understand. They usually meet up at night and that isn't my best time but I try to go just to get out of the house. I suppose we just have to try and make a new sort of life for ourselves but it is difficult.x

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Thank you i will try and go think i need out my flat as i know my neighbors will be back fighting again tonight and i dont think i can deal with it again xx

[rosewine in reply to Hidden]

Yes it will give you a break from the stress.x

[Hidden in reply to rosewine]

so now there a changbe of plan she wants to go to stonehavens fire works and i know that will be busy ahhh xx

[rosewine in reply to Hidden]

Oh dear but think positive thoughts as she will be driving and all you have to do is sit in the car and enjoy.x

[Hidden in reply to rosewine]

we wont be in the car we need to go out and walk about im away tell her im not going as i cant deal with crowds but her and her daughter shouldnt go just because of me xx

[rosewine in reply to Hidden]

Shame the change in venue doesn't suit you. Take care. I have stupidly decided to cook a roast from scratch a rare occurrence. It seemed a good idea this morning but not now and my OH has decided to have a headache so he probably won't feel like eating it, grhh.x

[Hidden in reply to rosewine]

aww that's a shame hope they can eat it I'm staying home in bed xx

[rosewine in reply to Hidden]

He scrapped his plate. I was so shattered I could hardly lift my knife and fork. Had to come to bed as my back was protesting. Have decided anything that has to be cooked in the lower oven will have to be his domain from now on.x

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i seen it was going to be minus 1 tonight and it was going to snow JOYS xx