Hi everyone how's things going for you in the beginning of this new year? Hope it's better than mine....
So far since xmas I have only had one "good" day and blew it doing too much cause of being over enthusiastic and ending up doing too much in one day, so now I am paying the price of it, I've spent 2 days in bed in excruciating pain so I phoned my GP to find out what are we going to do about the pain management situation cause they don't want to see me because they say my case is too complex for them (it's now confirmed that's the reason they don't want to see me and said I should go to Paliative care instead). So I suggested should I go to A&E, she said don't bother because pain management would be there and just turn me around and send me home, plus my aunts partner (who has ESA and PIP on a bogus illness) has already said that it's not right to make my aunt have to take me there or have the stress of me being in hospital if I call an ambulance, and the last thing I need is more problems at "home" because of his selfishness because he wants my aunt only to be running around after her.
As it is he made a comment the other day about "when do I plan on giving them their house back" when first it's not his house as he hasnt put money into it and doesn't help with the bills cause he's a Amazon addict and spends his ESA and PIP on it buying crap instead of helping pay house bills (i have been paying all food bills for over 4 months and I don't hardly even eat!!! ) and my aunt even though I have spoken to her and she agrees with me when we are in the car going somewhere, when we get home she is back on his side and only believes what he says.
So I have put in to housing but of course I have my cats and I am single so it's going to be difficult, but because I am so ill, hopefully i would get something quickly, especially as on the 12th I have an appointment with mental health and have decided to tell them everything that's going on at the house and that I am going downhill ever since he's been harassing me and being abusive towards me, causing more Anxiety, Depression and other problems, that I am spending all day in bed so I don't see him or he see's me during the day so things don't escalate anymore than they already have, as now he has turned off the heating to my room from haveing it on from 7 am to 1 am, to haveing it from 7am till 9am and then at 6pm till 11pm, I have told my aunt about it and she says ha wouldn't do such a thing and it must be in my head... so I guess I'm finally going crazy 😜
I have told my GP all of this and she has said she will try to speed up going to Paliative care and that hopefully they will be able to help me somehow and that going to see a psiciatrist (sorry my spellings not so good, "mental health dr" ) so with seeing them and getting them on board as well I might be lucky and find somewhere to live with my cats a bit faster, cause without my cats I would sleep in the garden shed before I gave them up as they help me more than people realise.
So they guess I will have to wait and see next week mental health what they say and what housing says when they get my file looked at...
Anyway sorry for such a depressing post as I am new here in England, even though I was born here but been in Spain since I was 10 and come back 4 months ago, so no friends and my only family is my aunt (and that's backfired, and she was the one that convinced me to come and live here in the first place saying that whatever it took there would be no problems.) so hopefully my next post will be a bit more positive as hopefully something will have got sorted out !!
Thanks guys and gals for reading my thoughts today!! Have a good one.
Gentle hugs Mandan