Feeling Low

I had my PIP assessment today, felt suicidal and a scrounger when I had finished it. During the assessment I felt as though I had to prove everything that I answered to and was very nervous throughout. I felt like walking out at the beginning as the health assessor had no empathy for my PTSD and claustaphobia, I thought that I was going to pass out with the torment of the bars at the windows. I felt very fatigued but dares not ask for a break as she told me that she was in a hurry. Towards the end I felt that she did begin to understand my Fibromyalgia, Carpal Tunnel Syndrome, Arthritis and other health problems, but it was a big struggle.... I totally feel depressed now and am trying to pull my self out of this. The assessor really pulled my ability to drive a manual car with support from someone sitting at the side of me. I have to drive as I can not go on busses or use taxis due to my fears, and cannot walk far without having severe discomfort and fatigue. Has anyone else felt this way after an assessment?

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  • mandip, I'm so very sorry you left feeling this way.Im in the US and I've not heard of this here. I've have said many times before; this is how they want you to feel when it's over.... perk up don't let them win!! Peck.🐤

  • Thank you for your reply it has cheered me up a little.

  • yes I felt exactly the same - will not put myself through it anymore - felt degraded, exhausted , and a liar , and low for weeks afterwards - can't go through that again - my OH and I decided to manage on our own - that way I don't get stressed, ill and I just am a lot more positive - I wish you luck - but its not for me - Neese. x

  • I feel the same way but have no one to financially help me at the moment. I wish I did so that I hadn't had to go through this. I just hope that ican find a way to help myself.

  • Hi mandip

    There is help available out there that you don't have to pay for.

    There are various charities that will help you. Your best bet is to Google for a Disability Advocate that covers your area.

    You don't need to do this alone.

    You can also ask our benefits advisor Janet for help too. I will pop back and give you a link for all of her contact details at the end of my messsge.

    Are you still feeling suicidal or has that passed now? Please don't be offended but I have given you the number of the Samaritans. It may just help you to have a chat with them:

    The Samaritans UK

    Telephone: 116 123 (UK)

    Lu x

    Administrator

    PS Here is a link with all of Janet's contact details:

    healthunlocked.com/fibromya...

  • Hi Lu, thank you so much for your message regarding support available, I really appreciate it. I am feeling a little better now knowing that there is so many nice people on here who actually care and can empathise with me. I really wish that I had joined earlier. Thanks again Mandi

  • I had my assessment for pip last week , the lady who did my exam was nice she didn't make me feel bad but il find out wen I get my result , Iv been Avin panic attacks n feeling sick all the time it's not fair that u AV to wait ages to see if u get ur benefit I AV no one else to look after me financially Iv been on dla for 16 yrs don't kno wot ok do if I get regected for pip

  • I can greatly empathise with your situation as I am feeling this way too. the panic attacks and feeling low is terrible. Oh I do hope everything works out for you, if ever you need to talk please don't hesitate to message me.

  • You will find a way I'm sure, I'm very lucky I don't have to put myself. through it he hassle either I have my OH to help me, but I realise not everyone is in the same position, wishing you all the best, good luck

  • Thank you very much for your good wishes.

  • yes!! I hated every minute of it, felt on top of all that they were re wording previous questions to catch you out! Awful 😞

  • I know it made me feel very suicidal and was a scary experience.

  • Yes I felt that as well, felt like I was been interrogated, terrible experience. I just hope that things change in the future so that I and others don't have to go through that trauma again.

  • During our assessments I had a wonderful assessor first time who believed everything I told her but when reassessed I felt as though she thought I was a liar. My husband was assessed and all she concentrated on was his physical problems that he was managing and not the mental ones that had landed him there in the first place. We had to go to two tribunals but he was awarded 18 points in the end rather than the 0 given by the assessor.

    I managed to get my DLA on a mandatory reconsideration as they had made a glaring error by saying they had based a decision on a document they hadn't got!

    I am in the process of applying for PIP and honestly don't expect to get it because if the way they now have the descriptors. Sometimes when we think things gave gone pearshaped it can be just the opposite so fingers and everything crossed for you. If you are turned down ask for a copy if the report as it is amazing the errors you might find. Do let us know how you get on. Nothing you can do for th time being so try and put ir behind you. Take care.x

  • That must have been very stressful for you but am glad that you got it in the end. Good luck with the PIP. Very good advice, I will bear this in mind if I get refused. Thank you.

  • Does your council have a welfare rights I was told to use these on any benefits and housing requirements I needed if it goes pear shaped and I pray it doesn't get help to fill forms in and make sure someone is with you its so very wrong to be treated this way and to rely you she was in a hurry is beyond me it's her job to access you not make you feel like that some of these people are robots job worths I was lucky I has lovely lady but bear in mind they don't decide good luck Carol xx

  • Hi and thank you for your support. I had a support worker with me but the lady cross examined him too. Yes my council does have this service so will use this if anything happens. Thanks again.

  • Your welcome it's just a shame you had to go through that ☺

  • The worst is over now you can't always tell how these thing go I was sure I would not be awarded but I did the first time I had to appeal but I was awarded

  • I know thank heavens, really don't want to experience that again.... I am really happy that it worked out for you in the end.

  • I'm so sorry for you , i had mine on tuesday and it was just awful..I left the assessment feeling that I was a fraud and a liar ..i will not go through it again I'd rather go hungry ...I hope you feel better soon I think we all have a story to tell ...take care of yourself xx

  • Hi lola, thanks for your support and so sorry you had to go through this recently. I do hope that everything turns out well for you. Thanks again.

  • Hi mandip

    I want to genuinely and sincerely wish you all the best of luck with your PIP assessment outcome. Please take care of yourself.

    All my hopes and dreams for you

    Ken

  • Not after my first I thought he totally understood and was sympathic ,but when the 2 pts he awarded me came back then I was suicidle , it took another year of fighting that wrong but I did and I won so don't give up you can win , sometimes it just takes time ! But stick with it !

    Gentle healing hugs

    Chris xxx

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