I had my assessment today and it was quite traumatic for me. Today was a bad day because of pain and headache especially as I didn't sleep last night. My appointment was 11 but I arrived early. The assessor didn't smile at all and my partner and I were a bit uncomfortable. She wanted me to do some physical that I couldn't do because of the pain. I tried to do it but it was painful and I told her so but she insisted. I started to sob and my partner said words of encouragement . The assessor wanted me to do all sort of pushing with my hands and legs even though I was sobbing. Then she asked me to get on the bed. My partner helped me as I was in so much pain. The assessor wanted me to bend my knees and keep telling me to dig my heels in the bed even though I was in pain. I never felt so undignified if there is such a word. I was sitting in the waiting room for more than half hour so by the time I was called I was so stiff from sitting. I spent one and a half hour mostly in like a daze in the room listening and answering questions as I move around painfully on the chair. The assessor saw my state of distress and never once was sympathetic to me but was very aloof and matter of fact with me.
I just hate how my body has betrayed me to go through such humiliation. Sigh😭