Just recovering from my health assessment for ESA. I feel battered and bruised! I have never been made to feel as I do, in my 52 years of being on this planet.
The assessor was quite rude, very abrupt and lacked any form of compassion.
I had my best friend with me, not only for transport/physical assistance issues but also for emotional support. She has visited me every single day since this illness took over my life in September last year. I honestly don’t think I would be here, if not for her.
As I often lose words or my train of thought, especially when exhausted and stressed. my friend attempted to explain why I was taking a while to answer the assessors questions. The assessor was so rude to her. Told her in no uncertain terms to stop talking, as it was my assessment, not hers! When she later tried to explain the difference in me, she was once again asked not to speak.
I found the whole experience distessing. I was sobbing after about 15 minutes, she didn’t even offer me a tissue. Lots of times, she attempted to get me to contradict myself, tried putting words in my mouth etc, etc, etc.
At one point I asked my friend to take me home, as I felt so humiliated and belittled. I could hardly speak!
My friend was so angry at the way I was been treated, she was going to ask for the assessors name, to file a complaint. I begged her not to, as I assume it will only go against me.
At the end, I told the assessor that I wished I didn’t have to be there, I have always worked and held a well paid and respected job. If I could go back to work tomorrow, I would in a heartbeat.
I’m not sure if it’s a good or a bad sign but she said she wasn’t going to do a physical examination. I was not asked to move, nor show how immobile I am. Is this because she could see the swellings and the pain I was in? Or was it because she knew that she would not be recommending me for ESA? Has anyone had any experience with this?
I am totally exhausted and look like I’ve done 10 rounds with Mike Tyson!
Thanks for listening. Xxxx