I know i have had good news latly, but you know what i just cut my legs off tonight and most nights if im being honest. Just got up from my own bed again and in spare room. Ive not stopped yawning since i got up this morning, i did a small yask woth my husband this morning like small put half the swing seat together and i felt like i had just built a bloody house,.how stupid is that. Ive been fatigued since i woke hop and tearfull for no reason.
I just want my legs back jow yhey where, gove me pains and stop mu over limbs work8ng just give me my legs. I hate it, i cant do anything i want to do, i cant even walk round the town. I dont want ot wish to go in a motabilitu scooyer i have a stick.snd o want to walk. I want to walk tound.the lake whete my caravan is. Its so naturized there i used to walk round all 3 lakes a year ago. I want tp walk back up to saint anns well at great malvetn again. I want to run througj the bluebell woods. I dont want these damm legs atached to my body anymore.
Yes im venting if i dont i will explode, nigjt after nigjt day after day my legs haunt me with chronic paon or bad aches so bad o cant keep them syill, they have a mind of yhete own and i wish tjey didnt belong to me . If it wadnt for my husband pushing me out i could quite happy to be a recluse and stay at home. I hate my legs, o hate these infisions ebery 4 weeks, i hate giving blood every 4 weeks,.all the mri scans i have all the specialist appointments. I want to be normal i want my legs back, i want to sleep,
Sorry guys i had to let out my head and feelings or else om going to explode and put back on the crazy house.
There done jusy want my life back, i stupidly thought when i retired that was it, in my head wad go9ng to dp apl this stuff traveling, walkinh my brain says go for it but my stupid body wont follow my brain.
Again sorry had to get ot out please find me a new pair of legs and dont hate me for writing this, just feel helpless and alone even though had good news recently, just want my legs back and functoonal for purpose.
And yes im depressed and yes im crying pn my own so no one can here, and im not seen to be so strong after all.
No need to answer my rantings unless u can give me my legs back sorry again. Wish you all sweet dreams x