Having a real bad day!!! So upset, been ill with food poisoning for couple days asked my adult son to clean cats tray, do dishes and tidy his mess downstairs yesterday, he didnt do anything so i had to do it all this morning. went in my neighbours for usual cuppa but couldnt settle cos stomach cramps and had all this to do when i got in. No point telling my son we will just argue and i dont want any more confrontation. Im upset all the time again lately, im so tired i sleep on and off all day, i dream bad dreams all the time, my kids never bother asking how i am when they do call, my friends have all deserted me, im in constant pain especially my shoulder where i had an op, my right leg feels like its on fire constantly, i cant bend, my joints kill even though i been told i dont have arthritis but my hands knees and hips hurt so much. I feel so alone and fed up. I have no life, i just wish one day i wouldnt wake up.
Sorry for feeling sorry for myself, this is another thing that gets to me as i know so many more people are worse off than me. But i cant help the way i feel.
My doc dont understand. I have a CBT counsellor but we just talk about me thinking of myself as all i ever do is rescue (as she puts it) worry and care for others.