I have a disabled husband who doesn't believe how horrendous fibro pain is & how it's possible for me to suffer from so many other problems too - I think he thinks it's a competition between us! Unfortunately he wins, so I get to do all the housework, plus all the stress of paying bills,making decisions, looking after our pets,all the cooking, gardening etc - Well, lets be honest, I do EVERYTHING while he plays on the computer!
As you may imagine, our marriage is hanging by a thread, but being a glutton for punishment I have agreed to try counselling etc to see if we can solve our problems. It's still early days but he has been a little bit nicer recently & I have been trying my utmost to see a positive side to our life, so am trying to get on with things, be nicer to him too, as well as trying not to moan or complain about things. I was doing quite well at it, we had been getting on better, but I feel SO lousy!!! I suffer from angina & have had a couple of mini strokes, so should look after myself, but it's impossible!
For the part few days my pain has been awful. I've tried to relax more but since I have limited vision & very painful eyes, I find reading or watching tv really hard, plus I'm light & noise intolerant, so really keeping busy is less stressful! The problem comes when i feel so worn out that I don't know how to go on, then I get snappy. Then I'm accused of not trying to save our marriage. Strangely I do still love my husband, but I don't know how long I can keep this up.
Oh dear, I sound a real whinger, I'm not really, just so, so worn out!
If any of you managed to read down this much moaning, thakyou for listening - I just needed to let off steam!