I finally moved into a ground floor flat a couple of months ago and thought everything was going to start to improve even though as others know my relationship ended which i am still really struggling with. The area i am in has drug dealers across the road there is hardly a night goes by when the police aren't called round here and i am scared. I fell in the bathroom and broke my arm shortly after having surgery. i recently saw the shrink as i have been feeling suicidal and i have history of attempting it. Saw my gP in the week she was very nice but will only now give me two weeks pills which is understandable.
I thought things were improving as i looked at swapping and a lovely lady loves my flat as its minutes away from her daughter who is going through cancer treatment so she wants to be close to her which is understandable. We were told Thursday everything was going fine and just wait for surveyors to come out and check both properties hers was a bungalow and perfect for me as i have noise above me all the time no soundproofing and i cant stand it it drives me nuts because i cant sleep you can hear conversations and everything.
Yesterday the lady I'm swapping with had a call to say it was all off as i am not old enough they also tried to say i wasn't disabled which made my blood boil because they have the proof that i am registered disabled. The reason i cant move is because bungalows are for over 60's only so its been turned down. So i said i would phone them which i did and i said it is disgusting that they will not allow a disabled person to move into a bungalow i don't want to buy it which is one of there reasons for not letting them to under 60's i am not noisy i don't have raving parties and to top it off there are under 60's in a couple of other bungalows. I said to the women on the phone that i feel i have been let down by every department as care direct have not been round and put any stuff up for me for example handles in the bathroom which is where i fell and broke my arm and any other things i need as they are too busy. My mental health nurse was supposed to visit in september but she has been ill but not been replaced by anyone or heard anything from them. I saw the shrink who was useless and put everything down to my relationship breakup and because i was talking that made him think i was fine. He didn't want to see me again. My GP offered no other help i know others have social workers etc. My housing officer didn't let me know about the move falling through and it seems all other officers check on their tenants i saw him once to say i was scared here and he went o to say they were watching a number roof properties that made things worse. I am actually dreading someone moving in above me as the noise is so bad the landlord has just gone in now and i can hear every step he takes above me. So on the phone to the council lady i mentioned i had been feeling sucidal because of everything going on and that this was like a twinkle of light at the end of a very long dark tunnel. Luckily as my son was here i coped better than i possibly would have done if i had been alone. I hung up in the end in tears.The next thing i know someone was at the door answered it to a police officer who had been called by the council saying i was going to commit suicide. She was a really nice lady and i said no i hadn't said that i said i had been feeling it because of being so socially isolated here unable to go out as i couldn't drive because of the broken arm and the previous surgery. The lady who was exchanging is i such a state as well and we just cannot believe that we were doing a straight swap and now she cant get away from her son in law who is harassing her she is disabled and to get to her daughters is two bus journeys which she cant manage and the daughter has to go through chemo so won't be feeling unto getting on buses etc. I just feel even more let down by the whole system you see these people on tv who get help with everything and i cant get nothing i have no money to look t moving into private again and they are so expensive down here. My kids are saying to move to Leicester but again i still need deposit etc. At the moment my closest option is going bankrupt or trying for a DRO. I just cant deal with anymore i just want to hibernate until the so called festive seasons are over as i am going to be here alone for it all.
Sorry to rant.