Not having a good day today.
Had a rough one yeaterday and in the muddle of my mind I went to bed last night forgetting to take my meds. Due to my original accident and my fibro I take a drug called oxycontin. Its an opiate so must be taken on time or I find myself in all sorts of hell.
Forgetting it basically sends my body into mass withdrawals (basically like a heroine addict) it was 3 am and I was shaking, sweating, and I could feel the blood in my body. My whole body was having restless syndrome. Those of you who suffer restless leg syndrome will know what that would be like. Instead of it being in just my legs it was writhing through my whole body. However because of my pain (now even worse as I hadnt taken my tablets) I was unabke to move about to try and ease the restless syndrome.
I had no idea I had forgotten my tablets. It finally dawned on me around 4 so I took them and it tgen took an hour nearly to get into my system.
My pain has been made worse by the recommended exercises I did yesterday morn.
My physio has been on at me to get back in the pool. Swimming (or rather bobbing around in the water) was something I took up on her reccommendation ages ago but owing to the fact I cant go on my own my mum has to come with me and they charge about 6 pound per person. Am only on ESA and am in all sorts of trouble money wise so it is just too expensive.
Anyway, as I have been suffering more and more, my mum paid for us to go and it was wonderful. It is so nice to be weightless for that hour. I love it so much. However I got carried away. Not realising, I over did it. It was only when I got out and became very much NOT weightless I instantly became a plank of wood. It got worse from then.
So thats ghe story from my last 24 hours. Last night was my 4th, maybe 5th (have lost count now) night of hardly any if no sleep at all. I have had 2 maybe 3 hours maximum.
Having physio tomorrow so am going to beg for the acupuncture like last week. I had a full night nearly after that so hopefully I will again.
Why is everything so hard?
No money, can't pay for treatments that I know will help. Can't move. Getting upset about everything then that makes fibro worse.
Poxy poxy illness.