Hi Hun, I'm so sorry for your losses, I can't imagine what you are going through and I send lots of hugs your way. I read posts on here everyday but this is my first post.
I can only speak from my experience and yes, it can get better!!! I've had fibro 10 years since I was 21 and expecting my first child. I could barely walk, sit, bend, had to drop out of my nurse training, spent hundreds of pounds on different opinions/ referrals/ supplements/ treatments!! The best opinion I was given (even though it didn't seem it at the time) was learn to live with it and exercise!?! I could have pulled the docs head off when he said that as I could barely lift my head!!! However, after finally giving in and trying amitryptiline, and pacing myself and slowly coming to terms with fibro, taking the good days with open arms n knowing that the bad days will come but they will go, I started feeling a bit better. I also lost my sister, my uncle, my auntie, two miscarriages and endless problems with my parents so I can empathise with you, I think! Counselling is great to help you come to terms with things, just talking and getting it off your chest, making sense of what's happening. I've blamed everyone and everything, tried to think why I'm like this!!! It's exhausting and the stress just makes it worse. Little achievements made me happy, like when I bathed my baby, I was in agony but I did it! Walking into town, so hard and painful but I did it. I remember saying to a homeopath, my dream is to run again... In tears. Slowly, (9 years after) I have slowly built my exercise up. Yoga, stretching, the wiiii, weekly massages, and I am now running, doing bootcamp!! I know it seems impossible but my energy levels are high most days. As long as I keep plodding on and moving gently, sitting is the worst thing I can do. I also now have 3 kids and they are what I get up for, I'm lucky to have a supportive husband too. I'm sorry to go on and on, meds have been important for me. Amitryptiline, citalopram and unlike others I can also take tramadol with it but only 1-2 per day, seem to keep my energy levels up, est very healthily, no alcohol ( or very little). I can cope with pain, I'm used to it, but the low moods and exhaustion and heavy foggy bubble head is the worst of all. Hope this helps, sorry for babbling on, just hope it will give you hope that it can get better and I hope it does for you, lots of lv, Angie xx