Good to be back!

[loppyloo61]

Unable to be on-line due to Nervous Breakdown & being treated for Anorexia Nervosa at Specialised High- Risk Eating Disorder Team @ Psychiatric Hospital!

Past year as been sheer hell! Best wishes Bettybaby. X

[TheAuthor]

Hi bettybaby

I am so sorry to hear of the terrible time that you are having. I sincerely hope that you are on the road to recovery. If you ever need a friend to talk to just let me know. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and wishing you pleasant dreams. Take care.

All my hopes and dreams for you.

Ken (the author) x

[loppyloo61 in reply to TheAuthor]

Many thanks to you Ken, for your kind reply. It has been an horrendous year or so, not just for me but it manifests itself into a "family illness" unfortunately!!

I am under care of Specialised High-Risk Eating Disorder Team in Psychiatric Hospital. Thankfully after 11 months I am now out-patient and down to weekly visits to Hospital for 1;1 Counselling and pray for the first time in my life, suffering with this insidious illness of AN, I can actually see "Light @ the end of the tunnel", for me this is an absolute miracle!. As I was in Intensive Care and hospital last year for a month with Pneumonia, Sepsis, Septicaemia, respiratory failure my organs had started to shut-down , due to this insidious illness of Anorexia Nervosa!

This is what prompted me to seek help (I was left no choice, as the matter was taken out of my hands!!) thankfully this saved my life!!

It is great to be back and I feel very privileged to belong to such a wonderful Site, where members all understand each other, can empathise like no - one else possibly could!!

Bless you for enquiring and listening, always helps one.

I hope your health is"nt too bad at present and you are able to enjoy your writing? Take care of yourself.

Best wishes to you.

God Bless, Bettybaby. X

[kobi]

Hi bettybaby, hopefully this year will bring you better health. Glad you can come back onto the page and talk xxx

[loppyloo61 in reply to kobi]

Many thanks kobi for your kind reply. Yes it is great to be back to such a wonderful, caring, kind Site. I have missed all the members immensely !!

So looking forward to catching up with everyone and all the new members, since I was last on-line.

I hope you are well @ the moment?

Best Wishes,

God Bless, Bettybaby. X

[crissy]

Welcome back hope ur ferling better now x

[loppyloo61 in reply to crissy]

Many thanks to you Chrissy, for replying. It is wonderful to be back, I feel so privileged to be a member of this fantastic, supportive Site and I have missed everyone! Also looking forward to meeting new members, whilst I"ve been off-line!

Thankfully with the right help (Specialised High-Risk Eating Disorder Team, in Psychiatric Hospital) for the first time in my life I can see Light @ the end of the Tunnel!

I have been under their Professional Care for the past 11 months, gratefully I am now an Out-patient, having 1;1 Counselling on a weekly basis.

So hopefully I am on the right road to Recovery from this insidious illness of Anorexia Nervosa! Praying I can claim my life back after years of suffering with AN, I would"nt wish this on anyone, such a dreadful, misunderstood mental illness!!

I almost lost my life to AN last year when I was rushed into Intensive Care with start of Organ Failure, Pneumonia, Sepsis, Septicaemia and lots of other complications!

I know I was saved by The Grace of God. Someone up there is definitely looking after me, so grateful as I have such a wonderful, patient husband and 3 fantastic sons!!

Apologies for getting carried away, my usual replies are no where near as long, guess I must be having "With-drawal" Symptoms!!

I hope your health is"nt too bad @ the moment.

Best Wishes to you.

God Bless. Bettybaby. X

[Ginsing]

Morning Bettybaby,

Welcome back we are all so pleased to see you returning to the site. Sounds like a horrendous year so I hope the one that is coming will see you with better health happiness and on the site more often. xgins

[loppyloo61 in reply to Ginsing]

Thank you so much gins for replying. It is good to be back! Hav"nt looked @ my lap-top for such a long time, due to lack of interest!! Praying to see the end of this horrendous year, living in my PJ"S for over a year !l Opitimistic for a brighter, healthier 2014 for us all!!!!!.

Best wishes,

God Bless. Bettybaby. X

[loppyloo61 in reply to Ginsing]

Many thanks xgins, Unfortunately just after my last "post2 introducing myself back to this wonderful Site. I re-lapsed/collappsed and suffered another "Breakdoown!" or as Psychiatrists like to call it "Major Depressive Disorder/Episode", what ever they call it the results and devastatingly the same!

Hopefully I am coming through @ least I am back on Lap-top, I hav"nt looked at it for past two months or so. So this has to be a good sign.

Although I am housebound at the moment I hope this would be a great opportunity to speak to you (metaphorically) and get to know you and the rest of the members.

I hope your health is as well as to be expected.

Many Thanks

God Bless

Betty Baby X

[Cookie72]

Morning Betty baby, haven't met you before so looking forward to your posts,,sorry you have had such a horrendous year, but pleased you are now on the up and up, so to speak, we will keep you in our thoughts and willing you to improve, welcome ak to our caring sharing loving thoughtful fibro club..lol. Take care Betty ...sending you a gentle hug.....Dee xx

[loppyloo61 in reply to Cookie72]

Many thanks Dee, I hav"nt met you so to speak either but grateful for your kind words. I thought last year was bad as I ended up in Intensive Care with Pneumonia, Sepsis, Septicemia, my organs started to fail, so spent the month in hospital. Someone up there is looking after me though as finally I have now got the right help for my dreaded Anorexia under Specialised High-Risk Eating Disorder Team!!

So like you said onwards and upwards optimistic for a brighter, healthier 2014 for us all on this wonderful site I have so sadly missed.

The kind members seem to be the only ones who completely understand and can empathise with Fibro being so debilitating!!

I"ve so missed the jokes and laughter we share on this fab. site too, as they say its the best form of any medicine!!

Kind Regards.

Sending you gentle hugs back.

God Bless Bettybaby. X

[mason]

hi Betty baby have not met you sorry you have had rotten year i hope this next year will bring you better health and happyness .softest hugs my new friend hope to speak again to you .

[tettridge]

Hi Betty baby

Sorry to hear of your horrible year but the new one around the corner that will be (Hopefully) better, at least you are now able to join in the conversations or at least read them.

Glad to see you although not a new member, you will be to a lot of those who have joined in the eighteen months so, nice to meet you

Take care & Kindest Regards

Terry

[jillylin]

Hi Betty,

hope this coming year is going to be much better for you. And remember anorexia can be beaten. Sending you good wishes.

Hugs

Jillyxx

[loppyloo61 in reply to jillylin]

Hi Jillylin, Thanks for the welcome back, means so much to me! Also for your kind wishes.. I have been assured by Proffes. I am under that I can overcome Anorexia, not so confidant @ moment, as been under High-Risk ED Team for past 12 months, no further forwards but I know its going to be a long road ahead. Trouble with me is once I"ve got something in my head, I want to run before I can walk!! Considering I have been suffering with AN for almost 30 years, I don"t suppose 12 months is a long period of time!!

Sending warm, gentle hugs back to you. I hope your health is good at the moment!

Best wishes

God Bless

Bettybaby. X

[jillylin in reply to loppyloo61]

It is not the easiest to recover from but if I can offer support in any way please let me know. I have done that journey as have a few others here. You have already made a big step in moving forward as you are getting help. Keep going, girl.

Hugs

Jillyxx

[loppyloo61 in reply to jillylin]

Hi Jilly,

Bless you for your encouraging, supportive words. \i apologise I hav"nt be able to get back to you but unfortunately not long after my "post" introducing myself back to this wonderful site, devastatingly I relapsed/collapsed a further "breakdown" or Major Depressive Disorder/Episode!!

It is only now I am able to look @ my lap=top,

Many thanks to you for offering me support with insidious illness of Anorexia, unless you have been there yourself, you cannot possibly know how immensely debilitating it is both physically/mentally exhausting it is.

I sincerely hope now that I am home safe and sound, praying that I am coming through the breakdown, that we can communicate and become friends, through this wonderful site?

I hope your health is a good as it can be at the moment.

Look forward to speaking (metaphorically) to you soon?

Take care

God bless

Lynn X

[jillylin in reply to loppyloo61]

Hi Lynn

Depression is terrible. Having a bout of it at the moment but fighting back with the support of folks here.. Yes, 'ana' has a loud and evil voice that shouts when support only seems to whisper but we can do this. taking it one minute at a time if we have to.

Gentle hugs

Jillyxx

[loppyloo61 in reply to jillylin]

Hi jilly

Sincerely sorry to hear your are going through the dreaded depression. Thanks for replying to me. Very good analogy about ana shouting loud and support only seems like a whisper!! I can identify with that totally.

If I can be of any help or support to you in any way possible, please do not hesitate to PM me?

I would love to hear from you, as I said no-one quite knows what it feels like unless they have experienced that constant 24/7 LOUD voice of ana, blocking any light in!

I have had some great support via this site.

Members who can identify with me too, like you who have unfortunately "been there yourself!!"

You are in my thoughts and prayers too.My analogy is if I were to walk around with a plaster-cast on my head, people would probably ask "what was wrong with my head?". Well @ the moment it is broken!!" Perhaps then they would have a better understand of any mental health issues, even empathise! I don"t want sympathy but I cannot cope with people, dismissing it too and telling me "To pull myself together!!" That is probably the worse thing you could say to anyone suffering with depression!!

We had to explain this to my mother-in-law, couple of weeks ago. She unfortunately fell and broke her arm and is currently in plaster, she wanted to come up and visit BUT it was a really bad day for me. I love her dearly but just could"nt cope with seeing anyone! My hubbie had to explain to her, you know your arm is broken and it is painful, well Lynn"s head is "Broken", so to speak, and she to is in too much distress /pain to see you, as she kept insisting she only wanted "pop in for half hour or so". I could"nt do 30 seconds that day!!

I have had tremendous support off one particular member, via PM, for which I am extremely grateful. So if you feel up to it, please do not hesitate in contacting me @ any time!

Member certainly helped me tremendously.

Sending positive, healing energies your way and pray you have a better weekend.

God Bless, Gentle Hugs X

[Gramma]

What a lot to put up with. Hope all gets better for you soon. X.

[loppyloo61 in reply to Gramma]

Hi Gramma.

Thanks for welcome back. It good to be back too, this is such a wonderful supportive site. Not everyone is "Doom n Gloom" either. I"ve had many a chuckle and brightened up my day by Members. Praying that life will improve, certinately don"t wish for another ANYTIME like I"ve experienced past 2 years!!

I hope your health isn"t too bad at moment! In my thoughts and prayers.

Best wishes

God Bless

Bettybaby. X

[Fibrofoggiest]

Hi Betty! nice to see you back! this is such a supportive community. I too have battled long and hard with anorexia and understand its complexities , well done for going through the treatment though, I know how extremely hard it is. Feel free to pm me any time if you need understanding and help of any description.

Foggy x

[loppyloo61 in reply to Fibrofoggiest]

Bless you Foggy, for your kind words of encouragement and support, very much appreciated. It is wonderful to find someone like yourself, who sadly has battled with insidious illness of Complex Anorexia Nervosa, My BMI was only 11 this time last year!!

After lots of heartache but fantastic Counselling in the Psychiatric Hospital, I have only had 1:1 Counselling, seeing Specialised Psychologist, Dietitian ect. but they didn't think I was suitable for Group Therapy, so as to date I have not spoken to anyone who suffers or suffered with AN myself!

I am most grateful to you for your offer to PM you, as I feel would I benefit a great deal from your experience, strength and hope in over coming dreadful ailment of insidious illness!!

I am new to PM and don"t know how we would be able to go about it but I would sincerely be so grateful if I could just have a chat to you regarding this illness.

I have found immense comfort and support from your "blogs" on this wonderful site with Fibro. As we both know there is nothing like being in contact with someone, who has the same illness. I know I"d be able to identify with your experiences. I apologise as this sounds rather selfish and one-sided!! Especially as I am still in Treatment on weekly basis now. I am just praying from the bottom of my heart that I can overcome this and get well too.

I was in ICU last year with Organ Failure. I hav"nt dressed for the past 18mths, living in children"s PJ"s!

I am desperate to get my life back for the sake of my wonderful, patient husband and 3 Fabulous sons, (grown-up) which as you know AN becomes a "family illness!!"

I am complete novice @ Pm but would be most grateful to you if you could kindly guide me how to go about this extremely kind offer of yours??

Kind Regards,

Best Wishes to you.

Many thanks, Bettybaby.X

[Hidden]

Hi Betty I agree with everyone that this next year bring you more happiness and good health

I have come through a nervous breakdown 7 years ago myself and know how hard it is to fight back so well done Betty and welcome back

xxxsianxxx

[loppyloo61 in reply to Hidden]

Hi Sian,, Many Thanks and blessings for welcoming me back. I apologise it has taken me this long to respond to you. Not long after my "post", introducing myself back, I could"nt believe it myself, devastatingly I re-lapsed, collapsed and suffered another "Breakdown!", or as Psychiatrists choose to call it Major Depressive Disorder/Episode.

Whatever it is called same result. It has taken me this long just to even look @ my lap-top. I have been in dreadful state of mind, even to point of "Suicide Watch" BUT the operative word being "been!!!". I just pray to God that I am home now safe and sound and really looking forward to being an active member of this wonderful Site.

Hopefully to enjoy meeting people such as yourself (so to speak).

Hope you are as well as to be expected.

Bless you for your reply. Be in touch soon.

In my thoughts and prayers. Lynn X

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[Ozzygirl64]

It certainly does sound like you have been through the mill of late, nice to meet and I look forward to be able to pffer support in the future along with all the other members xxxx

[loppyloo61 in reply to Ozzygirl64]

Many thanks for your reply. Apologies for not replying back. Unfortunately not long after my "post" I re-lapsed/collapsed and suffered another "Breakdown!!" or as Psychiatrist like to call it "Major Depressive Disorder/Episode

So sorry I have been out of touch again but I do look forward to be in contact with you via this wonderful site.

Start to claim my life back, once again. I am house-bound at the moment, so this would give me some confidence, getting back into the real world, speaking (metaphorically) with you.

I hope you are well as can be expected @ moment.

God Bless

Lynn X

[Saskia]

So very sorry to hear that you are having such a rough time. I do hope that you are getting all the treatment and help that you need to make a good recovery and that the staff are understanding and kind. My heart goes out to you, dear bettybaby, and I am sending you loving, healing thoughts and comforting hugs. Saskia XX

[loppyloo61 in reply to Saskia]

Hi Saskia Thank you so much for welcoming me back and your kind words of encouragement and empathy. I don"t know if you remembered me? I certainly remember you. We exchanged many a message.

I look forward into getting back into the swing of things and to start back by answering members on this wonderful, supportive Site. I hope your health isn"t too bad at present.

Best wishes

God Bless. Bettybaby/ X

[Ginsing]

Morning to PM someone what you need to do is click on the small envelope at the top of the page pop the name of the person you want to correspond with in the gap so yours I think would be Fibrogiest - then send her a message She is a lovely person and will be of great help to you. Good luck but dont forget keep coming on to chat with us all. Take care xgins

[loppyloo61 in reply to Ginsing]

Thank you so much xgins for that valuable information on how to do a PM. I am not technically minded so thats a great help for me.

I will keep in touch and keep you updated. I am so glad that I made the effort to get back in touch with you all.

I did"nt post alot but enjoyed reading messages. I think to keep things in your life, you have to be awilling to give them away. So I will make more of an effort to message, even if there will be alot of moaning going on from my end!

I used to have a great sense of humour, I am sure being in touch with all of you, I will find it again!!

Hope your having a good day. Thanks for reply.

Take Care.

Best wishes

God Bless. Bettybaby. X

[haribo36]

Good morning Betty,welcome back to this fantastic site.I also have not met you before and look forward to reading your posts.Well done you for facing your illness and I hope that you will continue to go from strength to strength.Have you had a look to see if there are any groups for AN sufferers on here? Maybe that might help you as well?xxx

[loppyloo61 in reply to haribo36]

Hi haribo36. Many thanks for welcoming me back, I agree it is a fantastic Site. I did"nt realise how wonderful it is and how much I have missed it. Especially with all the kind responses of people, such as yourself, taking time to reply to me and lots of valuable advice given, as always!

I hav"nt met you, so to speak yet but looking forward to getting to know you too. I"ve had CFS & Fibro for many years, too many but the support I received when I was active on Site was amazing!!

The reason why I was"nt using Site was due to my Nervous Breakdown. I did"nt know what day, week or month it was" I could"nt even switch lap-top on. It lovely that members remember me and new one like yourself are interested to get to know me. This in itself has boosted my low-self esteem.

I hope your health is"nt too bad at present.

In my thoughts and prayers. Many thannks.

God bless Bettybaby. X