Feeling really low this evening . Two years I had swine flu with stomach upset which developed into a full clinical breakdown and due to some error with meds seritonin syndrome . Ever since then anytime my stomach got bad I would worry I was going back to that and suffer a panic attack...... Well obviously (since I use this forum) I have Fibromyalgia lupus sle and CFS/ME , I have done cbt to get a better understanding of panick attacks and depression and see a physciatrist too. Everything has been under control pretty much, apart from the odd minor panick attack...... Then tonight I had a upset stomach and that to me equals breakdown / serotonin syndrome. Crazy the way my head puts 2 +2= 3000
I have had stomach upsets mildly since the breakdown and been fine but tonight because I am feeling sick I think it's all getting bad again.
I am terrified of my mind and how after so much time I still can feel like I am loosing all control. Obviously with the adrenalin released during an attack afterwards you feel f#%^ed and very sore and cramped . So not only am I now worried that my anxiety is getting out of control again but also the fibro is playing up with cramps etc..... I always say if I was an animal they would have put me down long ago . Really fed up and VERY VERY scared ??????