FET after MMC - Anxious, excited and a bit terrified

[MrsH86]

My frozen embryo transfer is due to tomorrow and I’m finding myself back on this crazy rollercoaster of emotions that the infertility brings.

Only a few months ago I felt my body had betrayed me at my 12 week scan when our little embryo no longer had a heartbeat and now it’s gearing up again for a transfer, I honestly don’t know how our bodies ( or minds) can be so resilient. I didn’t know how in the worst days we would make it here again and now strangely enough the time is here.

Anyway other than excitement in the last few days I’ve started to feel more anxious, the last 3 scans I’ve had were 1. No heartbeat and 12 weeks, 2. Retained products of conception after medical management and 3. Confirmation of no baby/ pregnancy - does seeing a scan get easier?

Also any advice how to manage a 2ww for a second round? I had zero expectations the first time and now I don’t know what feelings to have about it all, I think I’m pessimistically hopeful and my husbands decided to be very optimistic to balance things out 😂.

I’ve seen a lot of people recently talking about FETs in January so also wanted to say good luck to all of you brave women, you’ve got this ♥️ X

[ttcemmie]

Good luck MrsH. I don't think this journey gets any easier, and I would say at least you know what to expect, but actually it seems to have a way of throwing in new curve balls now and then! I also found out at the 12 weeks scan that my baby had stopped developing (last July) and since then I have had another fresh round and a frozen! As I say, I don't think it gets any easier, but it's very exciting to be at the transfer stage. Take care of yourself over the next two weeks, and do whatever you feel you need to do for you! Your husband balancing you out sounds like a good way to go! Best of luck!

[MrsH86 in reply to ttcemmie]

Thanks for the reply and the luck ☺️

I’m so sorry to hear about your little baby at 12 week scan also, it’s such a horrible thing to happen, and whilst I wouldn’t wish it on anyone else in the world, it’s a comfort to know there are others who understand.

I wish you so much luck in your continued journey ♥️ X

[Leesara]

MrsH86

Can do relate to your post. Not an easy one at all.

I think Your mixture of emtiond is understAndable and having experience a pregnancy but not successful makes next time more worrying. No tips I’m afraid because I’m in exactly same situation. (Butcurrently my follicles have produced too many!!!) but sending you lots of hope and positivity x

[MrsH86 in reply to Leesara]

Thank you so much.

It’s such a crazy journey it’s always good to know other understand ❤️.

I’m sorry to hear your follicles are misbehaving, are you hoping to start FET soon? X

[Lavender96]

Hi MrsH, I can totally relate to how you’re feeling (I could have written this post myself). I had an almost identical experience with my miscarriage, found out at the 13 week scan then had another 3 scans; 1st scan retained products after medical management, 2nd scan still retained products after more medical management, 3rd scan confirmation of no pregnancy after D&C. It’s made me really anxious about going for scans!! I’m currently on my meds for an FET and it’s such a strange feeling and mix of emotions!! I’m trying not to other think everything and relax (easier said then done!). Take it easier over the 2ww. Wishing you lots of luck 🤞🏼xx

[MrsH86 in reply to Lavender96]

Thanks I really appreciate your reply 😊

I’m so sorry to hear you’ve had such a similar experience it really is so cruel. You’re right moving forward is the strangest mix of emotions but sounds like you’re managing well. I thought I would worry so much last night I wouldn’t sleep but I was out like a light and actually really excited today. We also got our little print outs from the scan machine and it didn’t turn my stomach ( like I thought it would).

Sending so much luck for your FET ♥️ X

[Lavender96 in reply to MrsH86]

Thank you 😊💕 I’m so glad to hear you were excited! It should be an exciting time and it’s nice to a get the picture. I hope you’ve got some nice relaxing things planned for the 2ww to take your mind of the waiting. I’m feeling both excited and anxious in the run up so hoping the excitement will take over!! xx