*Sensitive* heartbroken

[ToffeeLou]

I hope my post doesn’t trigger anxiety and worry for others but I’m just back from a scan (8 weeks 3 days) and we couldn’t see a heartbeat. I went to the other decent clinic here (I moved to Mozambique 2 years ago and have been having fertility treatment in South Africa) and they also couldn’t find a heartbeat 😢 The embryo is measuring 8 weeks 3 days exactly where it should be but just no heartbeat. We saw the heartbeat in SA at 6 weeks 4 days and 7 weeks 1 day but nothing today. I’ve had lots of brown clumpy discharge which everyone including the clinics have been saying is the crinone but no bleed and no cramping. I guess that’s to come. I’m flying to SA tomorrow as they can do tests on the embryo and also a D&C which can’t be done here. I know they’ll scan again but unless the baby is in a weird position (if that’s even possible) then I guess I’ve lost it. I had similar happen in January (spotting, crinone clumps) saw the heartbeat at 6 weeks 4 days followed by heavy bleed on the sunday and no heartbeat on the Monday. On the positives I know I can get pregnant (after my first three transfers and no implantation we discovered I had a blocked fallopian tube, since removjng the tube I’ve had two miscarriages and another attempt in between with no implantation). I know I’ve read on here people having a scan and not seeing the heartbeat and then another doctor finding a heartbeat and I pray this is an equipment quality thing but having seen a heartbeat on the last pregnancy in Mozambique I think the odds are low. I’m just absolutely heartbroken and feel so alone. I know I’m not. The friends I know have all reached out to me, including ones who have been through similar, but unfortunately that doesn’t take away the pain. Thanks for reading and I really hope others are having better days 🙏

[Ham_Bo]

I’m so sorry ♥️

[Kate-92]

so sorry to read this - sending love x

[Here4ivfinfo]

Sending love. I’m really sorry that you’re going through this xxxx

[Christianbaby]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. My heart breaks for you. It's completely normal to feel heartbroken and alone right now, even with friends reaching out. I hope your trip to South Africa gives you some clarity and answers. Sending you all my love and strength during this tough time. Take care. x

[Willow5514]

I'm so sorry to read this. Sending you lots of love. ❤️

[Beclp]

gosh sending love and prayers 💕🙏

[fidgetmcgee]

oh, Im so so sorry. Sending love and strength. Take good care of yourself

[Millbanks]

Hello lovely,

I've just been through something similar and it's utterly awful.

I hope you're doing as well as you can be - but allow yourself the time to grieve.

We had very delayed growth with our embryo but a confirmed missed miscarriage at 8+4. It's so hard - sending lot of love to you xx

[ToffeeLou in reply to Millbanks]

So sorry you went through this x

[CardiGrey]

Sending you love, strength and solidarity. There are quite a few of us who have experienced baby loss on here (including myself) and it’s a terrible thing to go through. The hope followed by such pain, confusion, and sadness, is very difficult to navigate. We are here for you. No one can take away the pain as you say, but empathy is needed at a time like this and I’m glad you have people reaching out who know what you’re feeling ❤️

[HelzBelzUK]

I’m going through something very similar x Had our scan on Monday.. should have been 7+3 but embryo was only measuring at 6+3 with no heartbeat. I’ve got zero symptoms and my pregnancy test is still positive but I know it’s game over. Having to wait until Tuesday for a re scan is torturous 💔💔

Sending you lots of love and strength

Be kind of yourself xxx

[ToffeeLou in reply to HelzBelzUK]

Im so sorry to hear this. It’s awful. My embryo was measuring 8 weeks 5 days yesterday when my fertility doctor reconfirmed what the doctor in Mozambique had said, so I’m now sitting in the hospital bed after having it surgically removed. I couldn’t bear to go through another medicated miscarriage and this way they can test the embryo. My doctor is being great, honest enough to say he doesn’t have answers but also said we will do more tests as two miscarriages after seeing the heartbeat both times and with young donor embryos isn’t normal. I really hope something comes up on the investigations either on my self or the embryos so my dream can continue. Wishing you all the best for next week and sending lots of love. It’s a horribly stressful time but you wil get through it xx

[Nes1005]

Just wanted to send strength and love. It’s such a painful thing to go through. I’m so sorry, xxx