It was my God daughters birthday today, my friends little girl, why does being around kids hurt? I sat there And watched her family and her family's kids smiling wondering will I ever have that. I'm due to start icsi next week, her nan was showing me pictures of baby's and asking me when we're gonna start a family, they have no idea, and she never even had to try for her babies. I know I feel like a right cow for feeling that way, but I'm almost 25 and all my friends had kids young bar one! Only a handful of my friends know about Ivf, I suppose less people know less pressure, I can't help but feel jealous... my husband tells me I must not let it get to me and to stay positive. It's just so hard when I don't know what the future holds! I guess we all have our future in our heads how we think it's gonna be. I realize I'm being negative it's just this friend, I say friend is more of a old friend now I hardly see, I would be in my elements having a kids party, she's already had two abortions and when she told me about her being pregnant with her ex she's just spilt with of 3 months that was hard to take.. she said I've had two abortions I can't get rid of this one and I don't want to. They weren't even trying -.- all a bit hard to take!