Have finally come on today after waiting since the 22nd of January when I stopped taking my norethisterone. I've been sat here all evening on my own in agony even after taking tramadol, paracetamol and mefenamic acid. Now I've thrown up and just need a hug. As I now know I cannot take anything with progesterone in I just don't know what to do. I'm crying now like an idiot. I've literally been left with pain killers as my only solution and they just make me sick which makes the pain worse coz it pulls all my adhesions!!
The last advice I had from the gp was to take paracetamol all the time and tramadol when I need it but it just scratches the surface of the pain. I'm at my wits end. My other health condition leaves me with joint pain, IBS and restless legs and I dislocated my knee because of it 3 weeks ago and it's in a splint. My pain management session was cancelled due to the snow so I've now gotta wait another month and my CBT nurse is now on holiday for two weeks. I feel like I'm falling apart. And to top it all off I'm supposed to be meeting my uncle tomorrow for the first time ever (who is very middle class and has children who have achieved loads and is 83, I'm only 29 and havent achieved anything because of my disabilities, what on earth am I gonna talk about to him??). My Dad left when I was 5 after abusing me and my sister and then I never saw him again and he died when I was 15. I wanted to be at my best tomorrow so I didn't get all nervous but now I don't even know if I can go.
I'm sick of all these stupid illnesses ruining my life. Every plan I make gets postponed or cancelled because of it and I feel so alone. My bf works away from home all week and is currently in Zurich so I have to wait for him to ring me and I can't ring him because it's too expensive! My poor kids are having to basically care for me and they're only 7 & 5.....
Sorry for being all poor me poor me but I feel so isolated and afraid that I'll never have a life. I can't even stand up straight because of the pain....stupid endo, stupid hypermobility syndrome, stupid busted knee, stupid restless legs.....I don't know what to do with my stupid body any more xxxxxxxxxxx