Does anyone who hasn't had a diagnosis ever think you've got so used to the pain, that you start to think maybe it is normal?
For example I've woken this morning, taken kids down for breakfast and made a cuppa. I've been jolly and excited with them talking about Santa coming tonight etc, but the whole time feeling a pulling stitch like pain on my right ovary (odd as most of my pain is usually on the left) and when coming back upstairs feeling quite sore as I lift my right leg. Yet to everyone else in my house, I look like a happy pain free mummy going about my morning?!
I'm rambling a bit, but what I mean is.....unless it's significant pain and intense enough to make me stop in my tracks or shout out, no one really sees that I'm in constant pain, and because I'm learning to just act normal, it's making me think maybe it is normal. Maybe people do just put up with this. Maybe I'm making a fuss over nothing.
Then I have to tell myself that 2-3 years ago this wasn't happening! That the only time I'd feel cramps, and back ache and pains down my legs/hips and feel low and sad and miserable was for a few days during my period. Not most of the month.
It really messes with my head all of this. Trying to keep strong and listen to my body and keep believing that something is fundamentally wrong and not doubt that the whole thing is something I should just deal with?!
I have my laparoscopy booked for 15th Jan, but I feel the anxiety leading up to that is going to really affect me. I've just got visions of waking up to be told I've wasted everyone's time and that I'm a hypochondriac who's made it all up?
Guess i just wanted to know if I was alone or whether this was a common feeling? Did anyone feel like this beforehand and then find they were right and did have endo?