I suffered so badly with endometriosis I was due to have my second lap in 7 months. The week before I was due to meet with the consultant I found out I was pregnant. I couldn't believe it. I had a lot of swelling and hip pain during my pregnancy this was put down to being pregnant. I had my beautiful little boy and took him home.
For three weeks I was in agony with my swollen l legs and I felt I had just had him.
By the end of the third week I had lost mobility I was in agony and couldn't walk. First doctor said I had a trapped nerve in my hip and back.
My symptoms became a lot worse and not only was I unable to walk my temp was sky rocketing and I was extremely ill. To cut to the chase I was went to hospital they couldn't find the infection they thought I had so sent me for a cat scan. The results of the scan came back and they had found I had many blood clots. In my legs, hips and stomach.
The largest clot is sitting there in my largest vein. To make things worse they found a hole in my heart. They had never seen anything like this. For the first three days they weren't confident I would be alive. so I have been treated like a freak show and I have been seen by over twenty different doctors. Each time I meet a new doctor they tell me how lucky I am to be alive and then either I shouldn't have another child or I could at great risk and with medicine through out.
I have been unable to walk until this week (two months later). I can't carry him or do many of the exciting things new mums do. I am on a high dose of blood thinners so I am like one big bruise my new born bopping me feels like he is Mike Tyson. I'm on very strong painkillers which allow me to walk a short distance around the house. I'm s going to be a long recovery.
I am very lucky for somebody who has been so unlucky. I've fought really hard to get better and being able to walk is a big thing. My son is an angel and isn't hard work. But I've had no choice but to let everybody else take over and now I feel useless and very depressed. I know I should be thankful and I am! I just feel very depressed. I thought endometriosis would be the hardest thing I would face and I'm not even sure I have beaten that. I know I'm very blessed to of had my son and it's gift that isn't gifted to all who deserve children. But pregnancy has nearly killed me.
I know I'm lucky and in some respects I feel very selfish. I do Just feeling very down and teary.
Has anybody else had anything like this?