I have to admit that it's been a while since I signed up to C25K. After all the positive posts I received in return to my hesitating starting this programme, it has really been knock back after knock back. Things just got in the way of, well, getting me bum off the couch! Although I have started to make the "lifestyle changes" advised by my doctors, between stress at work, aspects of my home life giving me headaches and then having to have my beloved pet put to sleep, I've had "excuses".
But it was when I had to make that choice in having to tell the Vet to put a living being to sleep that did it. How dare I sit back any more and take it all for granted. I know some people may think that a silly trigger but to me, it was huge.
Sooooo.... tonight after work.. I went out and actually ran!! Yep! ME! I put on my new Aldi special running jacket, socks and trainers, together with my too-tight leggings then plugged Laura in and went out there.
It was just getting dark and actually felt less conscious because of it - not easy to see my beetroot red face! (although my running and breathing was more like a herd of buffallo stampeeding than a lightfooted and graceful gazelle!)
the first run was bloody hard. thought I was going to die!! Just could not breathe properly. Panicked a bit. the second run I turned the air blue in swearing (actually quite loud) at Laura because Im sure she short changed me in walking time (sorry Laura). However, I perservered and by run 4 I was actually getting in to the swing of things. I began to concentrate less on the fact that I was actually trying to run, but rather started to look up and around, take things in.
I passed other people "jogging". They looked fab. Made it look so easy. They were wearing little shorts and t-shirts. They had flesh showing!!! (toned of course). I passed some runners in pairs and they were ---- I couldnt believe it --- talking , TALKING, whilst running! I was just about breathing!
Made it home, my boyfriend asked me how it went. I couldnt respond other than nod. No breath left for talking. I cooled down playing with new little pussy cat before showered and had some dinner.
Biggest problem I encountered was not getting a good breathing technique going, but Im hoping (as guided by my fellow but more experienced C25Kers) that that will come in time, Im bloody aching all over now. I can feel every muscle (including one in my big toe and bottom I never knew I had) BUT I have a smile on my face bigger than my backside!! Because ----- I did it, I survived and cant wait to get out there again!
Small, but determined steps .....