So the dreaded week 5, run 1 no problem, run 2 I found hard work found myself struggling without the regular updates as 4 mins before first one was hard.
On to run 3, I was dreading it, kept making excuses and putting it off, mentally I wasn't ready. Had found my grief taking over and taking all my energy. Then today woke up, felt less in an emotional fog and full of energy. So decided to go for it, said to myself even I just run 10 mins it's better than what I've done and I can always repeat the week until I get it.
5 mins running flew by, then half way and I was still feeling fine, at the end of the run not only could I not believe I had done it, I also was not ready to stop!
I stuck to the plan and did the cool down walk but have my self belief back. I know now a few bad days does not mean I can't do this. It's mind over matter and today I've smashed it!