Since September I’ve been seeing an NHS physio for upper back/shoulder/neck pain which has been going for about 10 years and is mainly caused by stress and anxiety - which has improved a fair bit but my muscles don't know that and carry on hurting. It keeps me awake and affects my life on a daily basis. I’m also an insomniac so my sleep is always…. shite. But you get used to it after 13 odd years….almost!
So 2 weeks ago she tells me that I should be running every day. When I explain about muscle tears etc. she says that’s not true and only applies to squats and the like. She tells me to definitely run every day. And start weights to build muscle in my back. I go away and duly do the weights and carry on running - every other day. c25k has drummed it into me.
She says lack of sleep is the main cause for all of this and I should see the senior physio who can help. After so many years of this with no support (a particularly evil doctor showed me the door on several occasions so I stopped going) I’m all ears
So I met the senior physio today and he says to stop running. No impact exercise - it’s too much of a stimulant, adrenaline hormones are a no-no. And no weights. Only gentle stretching and a brisk walk at night. I've got to do mindfulness exercises for a month as part of a ‘programme’ that's going to get rid of this eventually…. which is basically sitting in a slouched position and sighing a lot. Or swinging my arms a lot. Feeling the weight of gravity on my body and doing a ‘mindfulness body scan’ every day.
BIG fat s*dding sighs (in a slouched position). They’ve managed to completely contradict themselves and I’ve completely lost faith. I want to help myself but for God’s sake!!! They’ve both commented on how tight the muscles in my neck and shoulders are, but no one’s actually tried to alleviate that in any way!!
Well, there is NO WAY I am giving up running… It’s change me inside and out, it gives me a better perspective than I’ve had in years, I feel more capable in an increasingly incapable world, I’m fitter than I’ve been for 20 years. I’ve overcome fears and anxieties and I’ve still got more to do. I’ll go with the Mindfulness (because what other options do I have?) but I’ll still do my running… it’s the only thing that keeps me (in) sane!!!