I finally finished week 7 and am relieved it's done. The weather this week has been unbearably hot and humid making these runs brutal. I woke this morning with little to no enthusiasm to get this run done but I reminded myself if it's not today it's tomorrow. We are going to have a late night out tonight so I felt I needed to do it today Once again this run felt so long from the very beginning. The whole way I kept saying to myself "you WILL do this!" and I did. I've come to realize that while this journey is physically challenging it is way more of a mental challenge for me. I find now that I'm not doing the intervals, mentally it feels like 'work' like never before. Getting out of bed at 4:30am is harder then ever because I know the work I have ahead of me. I can't say that running/jogging has been all that enjoyable.lol I have to work for every second I keep my feet moving forward and I am absolutely exhausted when I'm done and i'm REALLY slow to boot. Yes, I am proud of what I have accomplished but is this ever gonna be 'fun' or 'enjoyable'? I wonder what it will be like when i finish this program..will I maintain this? . I know i will graduate without reaching the 5k mark so I still have work to do. As much as 'Laura' has irritated me at times I've come to depend on her prompting and support along the way. Not sure how i will do without her in a few weeks. It doesn't help either that I'm just about the only person on the road at that hour and it feels really lonely out there. Sorry for all the rambling it's been one of those days of self doubt. I'm just glad this week is done and I have a few days to try and lift my spirits and enthusiasm before next week.
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