It always leaves me with too much time to think! Do you specific days that you dread?
Chloe
It always leaves me with too much time to think! Do you specific days that you dread?
Chloe
What is it about Sundays. I always seem to be on Auto shutdown. I'm been watching my local church service on YouTube. Really enjoy that , but i have no motivations to do anything, even gardening is hard to get into sometime. Until i do then its great.
I almost feel though , that i have a responsibility to myself to get to the bottom of it.
Completely agree with you there Greyone
It seem compulsory to do do nothing and I dislike it, not sure how it can be changed though.
I find that a genuine sense of purpose helps. If i have to cut all of my hedge or mow all of my lawn then i can get a sense of achievement. But that is it.
Yes, today is the day I dread (It is still 8/31 in California). It is now six years out from this day of my companion’s passing. So much time has elapsed that I am on my own as far as support goes. I dug out a few photos but that didn’t seem to help matters.
Many Californians like myself are staying inside their homes because of wildfire smoke in addition to the pandemic. I am on this site looking for distractions!
Hi Clarrisa,
Really good to hear from you.
As always, anniversaries of any description are something to dread and no matter what we do, it doesn't seem to go away<3
It's dreadful and very frightening for you there, I'll be thinking of you<3
Chloe
I went through a phase where I didn't like Friday or Saturday nights because they made me feel like I was missing out but now I am OK with them as I make sure I have things to look forward to on those nights even if its just cooking something different those nights or ordering in and having a great book or a video to watch which I find has helped.
This year I had felt upset on the Easter bank holiday and the ve day one because I felt like I was missing out but so was everyone else but I was fine on the late May one and the one just gone as well although I was upset in the afternoon yesterday during a walk in the park with the families and couples there and just me on my own as I had felt out of place as hubby was working and I had left my sister in law to have time with her spoilt ginger tabby baby and had gone to the park and had felt upset.
On the Sundays before lockdown was eased I would have times when I was on my own and was fine until going out for walks at the same park I had gone to yesterday and being upset by couples and families as I was missing my husband and my sister in laws company and feeling like I didn't fit in.
All of them lately. When your loved ones are thousands of miles away and might not ever see them again it causes one to pause in despair.
That is true but we try to make acquaintances online and I wonder if you have tried this? Obviously, we have to be very careful, but you may find a forum where the subject matter is of interest to you, just a thought.
<3