Hello all, I hope you are all doing well!
I would like some advice. In 2012 my grandmother passed away after suffering from Alzheimer’s for around a year. I remember my dad phoning my mother and I knew before she even told me that my grandmother had passed. Although I was sad about it, I never broke down or struggled with her passing, I was calm and as horrible as it may sound, I was relieved, not because I wished her gone, but because I knew she didn’t have to suffer anymore and we didn’t have to see her fading away. I think I also expected it to happen too. It’s almost like seeing her go through her illness hurt more than her passing. It’ll be 6 years since her passing this year, I always go and put flowers down on her birthday and the anniversary of her passing where we had her ashes scattered, but I just cannot seem to cry, whilst I cry on a regular basis for my grandfather who died when I was 9 which was a good 15 years ago and my cat who died in 2012 too. Am I wrong for not crying over her passing? Are there any tips on how to grieve properly?