I Keep forgetting that she’s gone, is that a good thing or am I being disrespectful?? I know she’s where she wanted to be??

[spykey]

My Best Friend passed away 2 coming up to 3 years ago, She was like a foster mum to me and got me out of a difficult family controlled having to live at home cos I couldn’t afford to move out from my parent home 3 months before my 22nd Birthday!

I couldn’t have asked for a better friend, she was Always there on the end of the phone, I lived with her family for the first 2 years, there ended up with 10 of us in the house at one time! She had 4 of her own children, 2 foster twins, another girl in a similar situation as I was, and my friend and her husband!

For my 22nd Birthday we had an amazing time! We had a Bouncy Castle, she made me a cake 🍰 with a Ballroom Dancer on it cos I was a dancer, we invited a number of people from the Church I went to and a lady who was 75 who couldn’t wait to get on to the bouncy Castle!! It was an amazing day & time!!

My friend bought me a Gold Cross with a Sapphire in the middle of it, it looks amazing when on, Unfortunately I have stopped wearing it as I keep breaking the chain when I’m brushing my hair and can’t afford to get a really decent priced chain that won’t break too easily!! I feel lost without it round my neck as I never took it off, and it helped me to feel close to her when she was alive, and now she’s passed on I’m So scared of breaking the chain & losing the cross and would hate myself if I lost it!!

I haven’t mentioned my friend before because I keep forgetting that she’s actually gone! I keep thinking I know I’ll ask Sue about that & then stark reality steps in and I get a big heart 💔 drop and remember she’s not actually here any more!! We lost her a bit when she was alive when she got dementia, but I never lost my friend and was always there and pleased to see her when she came down or her husband needed a break to go shopping etc!

I don’t think I’ve actually ever let her go yet or allowed myself to step into reality! I went to the funeral and cried a few tears, not that I let anyone else see me though!! I try to keep in touch with her husband but not too frequently and sometimes he visits for a cuppa and last time he visited he apologised for leaving it too long since he’d last seen me, I told him he didn’t have to apologise and I know he’s 💔 broken hearted without her and I feel awkward as to what to say when he visits!!

She will always be my Guardian Angel as she was in life she will be and is in heaven, at home with her precious Heavenly Father God!!!

Love 💕 and Blessings to All on the Care & Share site.

Spykey 🤗😺

[chloe40 Administrator]

Hello spykey

I can understand that you sometimes don't remember your dear friend has passed until you something occurs to jolt your memory, I'm the same with my Mum. It may sound as though we haven't really accepted the loss but I feel it is because think in our hearts they'll always be part of us and we can still chat to them in our minds as we once did.

Your friend was an amazing woman, full of love and compassion and she would be so very proud of you today!

Regarding your chain, you may be able to use a pretty thread of rolled leather that use see on some necklaces, may be a answer so you can wear it.

Keep her close to you

Chloe <3

[spykey in reply to chloe40]

Hi Chloe

Thank You for your kind words and understanding,? I also like your ideas for the necklace, I will give it some thought!

I’m really glad I found the group again, I had forgotten how much it meant to me and how it helped me!

And I thank God for you Chloe, and your idea to start the forum, You are a True blessing Chloe and it doesn’t take a genius to work out how much of a help and support you are to everyone who you support!

I’m So sorry I disappeared for so long, but I’m So glad I’ve managed to find my way back and to meet all these other wonderful people.

May You All be Truly Blessed and Surrounded by God’s Angels and Comforted by each of your own Amazing Guardian Angels

Love 💕 and Blessings are being sent to each of You

spykey

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to spykey]

Thank you so much spykey

It's wonderful that you are back among us and I hope you find some peace here {{{hugs}}}

Chloe <3

[kenster1 Volunteer]

sounds like a true great friend.

[Arniestal]

I know what you mean I lost my mum 3 years ago and sometimes I think I see her. I still think must tell mum this or go and see her. Maybe it's because the person is always in your head. Plus it's very hard to accept, so maybe we haven't yet. Wishing you all the best and hope for a happy future.