Recently been invited to this group I'm not sure where I begin I'll go back just over 3 years ago it was a month before my 21st and I found out my dad had died suddenly in his sleep. This man is the closest person to me I'm the apple of his eye so close and suddenly he's gone. Then we fast forward 6 months and my grandad dies of natural causes or as I think a broken heart I can't imagine how he would have felt losing his son especially as before I was born his other son committed suacide. This man was the next closest person to me we shared some special memories as I was his first grandchild and the only one that spent any time with him when we visited. My cousins were closer to my nanna after he died though my nanna warmed towards me and the last time I saw her we had a lovely time not once did she criticise me just love all the time reminiscing about dad and grandad unfortunately in September she was diagnosed with cancer January just gone she lost the battle after doctors were so positive she would make a full recovery.
I'm stuck on how I get past all this how to cope or even accept this has happened. I just can't see how my life goes on without them I want to tell them all the stuff I'm doing and it hits me like a ton of bricks I can't and it's killing me. Can anyone share how they deal with such heartache?