27 months since my life turned upside down - but I’m okay now

[Aisha12]

The day I lost my dad, I remember feeling excruciating physical pain in my chest. I never knew emotions could manifest themselves to be so damn real? I remember questioning myself how will I survive this? How can I survive without him? How do I get through life now?... but I’ve got through 27 months now. It sounded so cliche when people would say to me “this is going to make you stronger”, and I can only say looking back it has. I can deal with anything now. ANYTHING. I’ve dealt with the biggest hit in my life, and I’m still standing! Anything else that life throws at me now I’ll ride through smoothly.

Don’t get me wrong, I STILL have bad days. But my pain doesn’t feel like a stranger to me anymore. This feeling that was this void and so strange, now feels warm and familiar. I can’t imagine life without my bitter-sweet companion that I call grief.

I don’t know what the purpose of this post is, but it’s just something i wanted to share.

[Greyone]

Hi Aisha12

One reason to post is to express yourself out loud. Things can look and sound different when you write them down or say them out loud. With time and reflection, this may help make things clear. It is not always good to dwell on bad or sad things but reflecting on what has happened to you can lead to greater inner peace.

In the last 3 years, I think I have a better understanding of my personal journey and what things mean. I have known things I won't visit again or for a long time. I am happier that only a few things have been made plain to me through my patience. I am also learning how to come to terms with what I have become.

I wish you continued success and greater peace on your lifelong journey and hope to be here to hear from you any time in the future. Good luck.

[kenster1 Volunteer]

hi Aisha sorry to read about your loss.after I lost my mum in 09 I was a broken man for over a year I was totally lost without her and wasn't sure I could continue.fast forward to april 18 and we lost our dad I don't really know how but I think the loss of my mum made me stronger in the end.ive only cried about 5 times maybe since he passed.i think after a few losses we get used to the process surrounding it although it is still painful and heartbreaking like you hopefully over the hardest hurdle.god bless and take care.

[chloe40 Administrator]

Hello Aisha12

A very warm welcome to our community.

Thank you so much for your post, I'm so pleased you felt able to write this and I'm sure you and you are in a better position than when you lost you're dear Dad. I felt uplifted and hopeful for so many of our members and I thank you for that <3

Chloe

[reaThua9]

Just want to say I'm so happy for you and thank you for sharing! Now you can comfort others with your newfound strength, helping people who are where you were. Your observations about grief are so insightful, I know others would benefit from hearing that. God bless!

[Lperica10]

I liked reading your post. I lost my dad almost 3 years ago and I feel the same reading your post. At the time when people say only time will help you can’t even process what they are saying because you are so in the middle of it. But like you said I still miss him so much and have good days and sad ones - I got teary eyed when talking about him yesterday - I’m pregnant and he won’t be able to meet his first grandchild. But I will make sure my son knows all about him. 💙💙💙 I like getting back on here too just to maybe help others or share my story. I’m glad you are doing the same. Take care.