I have suffered with anxiety and panic attacks for many, many years. At one point I walked out on my job, cut myself off from all of my friends and basically closed myself off to living.
After about 5 years of this, and after being in hospital for an unrelated issue, I started to feel slightly better and this is when I met my now wife. In the next few years I was able to get a new job and have a new life and at times have started to feel that I could cope, in some way, with the anxiety.
But in the past year or so it has increasingly become more and more difficult. At times I am constantly having panic attacks and then subsequently feel that everything is too much to handle. At the moment I have to find a new job, find a new place to live whilst my wife finishes her PhD and I am struggling. Yesterday I had to meet with the director of the place where I work to discuss restructuring and I had a massive panic attack and it was all I could do not to run out of the office. I was sweating, unable to look up, just concentrating on writing down what she was saying in some kind of attempt to seem 'normal'. This was in no way unusual and happens very often at times, with varying degrees of severity.
Last year I had counselling as well as ten or so sessions with a clinical hypnotherapist. Although of some help, the counselling was limited to six sessions and the hypnotherapist felt that she could not help me any further but to get back into contact if I wanted to.
I am now considering CBT and perhaps medication. My GP prescribed me Propanolol but this has not been very successful. Does anyone have any advice or feel like sharing any experiences?