I have suffered from depression on and off through my life, I am 54. My husband passed away on Christmas Day, after a short illness and I am left absolutely devastated. It was very traumatic and I have nightmares. Whilst I am employed I have not worked since the end of October, initially so I could be by his side, since Christmas because I am not well enough. Initially I did the things my husband wanted doing round the house but I now find that all I do is stay in bed. I am due for a mental health assessment on Friday. I am scared as I have been hospitalised before for 5 months prior to meeting my husband 21 years ago. I spent Boxing Day in hospital.
I don't want to be here without him.