As today is Easter, happy Easter to you all....
We are having a small family / friend gathering (6 people) for dinner. The table is set and we await the visitors.
Now I should perhaps be looking forward to this, dinner is being cooked the table looks lovely, but I'm not, all because of my stuiped anxiety. I dread the social side of it, I don't want them to talk to me or ask questions.
I have been a person that makes people laugh and have managed to mostly keep that up in very short spates of 5/10 minutes, not so easy at the table for a while. People expect you to ,and the focus in that respect will be on me. I would prefer to eat dinner and just listen and not say much. So instead of looking forward to something pleasant I am dreading it...sometimes I think the sooner I go totally off the rails the better, then I won't have to act normal.
Sue