Went to see the Doctor \Thursday in a terrible state was shaking felt like i was going to faint after some consultation i decided i needed some medication as i am really scared of taking tablets. I was put on Citalopram. I came home crying and uneasy all day.
I promised my Daughter i would take them which today will be the 3rd day. My children had arranged to go out for Dinner i was in a terrible panic thinking i cannot go out let alone sit and eat in a crowded restaurant with other people.
Cut a long story short i managed this and it was the best feeling in the world.
I wanted to shout from the rooftop i am sitting here like any other normal person not feeling full of anxiety and wanting to run out.
For myself and my wonderful children and grandchildren i am so pleased i could fulfill the day and i am truly blessed.
I keep telling myself this is the way forward and will persist if this anxiety and panic allows. I want to crush the demon that is taking over my life and stopping me from getting on with life.
Thought i would share this as i never thought for one moment i would be able to conquer this. So what i am trying to say is i wish everyone the best of luck to regain living a perfect life and understand the fears. I pray to God everyone here makes a recovery soon.
Best wishes to all
Love Seyi xxx