Hi thought i would just write a blog to share that Sunday was a good day for me with no panic and jelly legs i was able to enjoy the day something i don't do very often.
Today (Monday) as you know my daughter and grandson have been staying and my daughter needed to go to the bank. She said we can go around 2pm i was watching the clock thinking i can do this although the other part was saying i am not sure.
We drove to the bank and started to line up something i struggle to do i came over really hot i laugh now as i took my coat off and was trying to concentrate on my breathing. My Daughter knows the signs well and when we got out she was like lets have a tea before we head back.
Previously i had been in this cafe and struggled to sit and eat or drink i would panic like crazy. The cafe was not packed and i managed to order a meal. I started to feel really relaxed and then the baby was playing merry hell tired but would not give in and sleep. My daughter got stressed out and said we better head back home as i had to get to the counsellor. Making me laugh she said after the babies day she was more stressed out than me.
Just hope i have more good days and less awful days.
I pray every night for the people here that they may have better days.