The only reason I live is my partner.I don t have other reasons.The members of my family are all nuts cases for a reason or another..we don t help each other anymore,we don t get on,we are all selfish,we don t listen to each other and do not support each other..My parents are getting old and they are not reasoning anymore,my brother is schizofrenic and my sister lives her life like everyday would be the last one(she s 43,I'll,with no many years left to live).
What has happened to us?My family is a disfunctional family and I m suffering terribly for this..I would love to spend Ester with my family like everybody else but I can t take the plane to go back home and my sister who s here is going away,she doesn t even care I won t see my nephew for Easter!
I dream of a family where Christmas and or Easter would be together ..but maybe I m just an idealist,a looser and a failure.I m not mentally well and life is not helping me,actually never been nice to me.The only thing is my partner..but I m worry I m going to loose him as well.I have no job and I won t be able to find another one,we have no money and on the top of everything I m really depressed,agorophobic and suffer of panick attack..What is it life?waiting that it will end.