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[marcusvanbreugel]

Dear everyone,

I have had anxiety for many years, panic attacks for around 6 months. I arranged councelling and have had this for around 1 and a half years, went to my GP, and am now on 10mg Citralopram and also write in a diary. I have slept quite badly for around 6 months. Last night though I had a good nights sleep for the first time in quite a long time.

Through the councelling I am now starting to connect with the part of me that went through difficult times in the past, and it feels a little bit as if I am being freed or loosened.

At the moment I feel like I want to say things, want to let out my feelings. I feel like there is very deep down something starting to move. I am starting to tell people how I feel and it feels pleasant.

This community has been special and has helped me through many tough nights. I thank you all

Kindest regards,

Marcus

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Marcus , I am so pleased to hear your good news & I can see you now opening up more in your blog , so i can see the difference in you

You are very special to us all as well & such a loving & polite person that I am so pleased that people like you are on this site

You deserve everything you are feeling & look forward to more blogs from you

Love

whywhy

xxx

[marcusvanbreugel]

Dear Whywhy,

Thank you very much for your very kind words. You are very special too.

Kindest regards,

Marcus

[Kaz12345]

Hi Marcus, pleased to read you are feelings you are making progress. I find talking always helps, as the saying goes 'its good to talk' !!

[marcusvanbreugel in reply to Kaz12345]

Dear Kaz,

I very much appreciate you words.

Kindest regards,

Marcus

[Vanscotland]

Hi Marcus,I too had councelling to go through why I have health anxiety,and it really does help once you get over your feeling of not wanting to tell anyone for fear of what they will think,glad you are feeling better x

[marcusvanbreugel]

Dear Vanscotland,

Thank you for kind and encouraging words. They are much appreciated.

Kindest regards,

Marcus

[Aden65]

This might cheer you up,arranged phone counselling for anxiety,counsellor phones 15 minutes after the arranged time,lets my phone ring twice I lose my signal and that was the last I heard from her! Had to chase them in my lunch break which of course triggered the anxiety and have now been given the next appointment at the end of February! Not the kind of thing you would expect for a counsellor who is supposed to be helping you get over anxiety I feel your pain as I am just emerging from a very dark period of anxiety I hope you soon 'see light at the end of the tunnel' xx

[marcusvanbreugel]

Dear Aden65,

Thank you very much for your blog. I am a little confused though. The words do not come across as being the right direction for me.

I am wondering whether your words may have been meant for someone else possibly Whywhy since you write 'this might cheer you up'.

I am sorry to read that you had a for example unhappy experience with a councellor.

Kindest regards,

Marcus.

[marcusvanbreugel]

Dear Aden65,

If I am wrong about your blog, then i am very sorry. Thank you for your sympathetic and supporting words.

I have read your blog again and read the part about 'just emerging from a very dark period of anxiety' and this is in my direction.

It is just that the 'cheering up' part is something that i feel is not for me, since my blog is quite positive. Since Whywhy wrote 'feeling so down' I thought of her after I read your blog with the 'cheering up'.

Kindest regards,

Marcus