Sorry bin a bit absent

[leehow79]

My fone is playin up + makin me angry, had no internet connection r days. lst 2 weeks was feelin much better + more possitive then yesterday the dreaded fear has come bck, dnt understand that, everytime im startin 2 feel more better + gettin bck 2 normal it always has 2 come bck 2 find me. feel like i cant carry on doin this.

[fadedlizard]

Hi Leeanne,

I was just wondering how you were. Don't you just love technolagy (can't spell it either!!!)?!

I'm afraid anxiety is like that. One step forward, two steps back. I think (certainly for me) I retrigger myself. The fear is gone for a few days and then I look for it, where is it, has it gone this time?!!! Then of course it's back. Other times it seems to come from a clear, blue sky. CBT tells me that isn't true. Some thought pattern I'm having is retriggering the fight/flight response. Sometimes that works and I can trace the thought back and challenge it. Sometimes I'm clueless. It's just there and I have to let it run it's course.

Sorry if this isn't much help.

It's good to hear from you though.

Be strong, love.

This won't last forever. You will get through it.

Love,

Lizard.xx

[Hidden]

Hi lee

was to wondering where you were , glad you have posted hun

I no you feel you have gone back , but if you look back at your blogs from the start of joining the site , you have come an awful long way lee & you should be so proud , I am proud of you

Like Lizard says this patch you are in will rin its course & you will come through it

Keep doing what you are doing as it seems to be working , even though anxiety has its up's & down's

Look forward to hearing from you soon

I no you will be strong & come through this

Love

whywhy

xxx

[Hidden]

Welcome back Leehow!

It is natural to have ups and downs, but when we are feeling really low it seems more exaggerated, I think. When I have some good days I think 'hey this is great, back to myself', but then panic when I have down days that 'It's back'. We can gradually climb up the ladder of recovery, but as lizard says, sometimes it feels like one step forward, two steps back. I hope you feel more positive again soon.

All the best

Ann x

[John12]

Doo you all suffer from anxiety? I do bad keep thinking I'm dieing

[ilsonbunny in reply to John12]

Hi john you say you think there is something wrong with your heart. What symptoms do you get?

xx

[John12 in reply to ilsonbunny]

I get body zaps and frobbing shocks in my hands and sides and also brain fogs and pound heart I get worried when I can't hear my heart pulse just got a totally different out look on life now.

[Minnie12]

its normal to feel like this as its called bad days as we all have bad days but have more good days so dont worry, keep thinking positive, doing what you did recently that helped you to feel better so carry on and dont giving up hun...... stay strong!!! xxxx

[leehow79]

Thank u so much every1. jst cant face the rest of my life bein like this, thinkin im on road 2 recovery then bab, hits u harder than u can ever imagine. think i jst live on pure fear if i dnt even hav anxiety feel like its still there and fadedlizzard i think my anxiety is mostly triggered by my analitical thoughts but other times it jst jumps u out of the blue. by no means am i a soft woman, i wld b considered very stong but this jst beyond terrifies me. crisis team say 2 ill 4 cbt then refer me 4 cpn then will refer u 4 cbt then instead were gonna refer u 4 phycopherapy. 2 b honest after 3mnths i cnt b bothered wiv them any more, each nurse u c tells u the total oppisite 2 the other. wen u put ur trust in these people u expect these professionals 2 b on the same path, cldnt b more confusin if they tried. i know theyre stretched the mental health but this is not acceptable. does any1 feel same?