Background Anxiety.

Hi. All. Although off tablets for a while now I still get the feeling that "IT is 'lurking' in the background, waiting to pounce, as it were. Now I know the theory behind this but ones mind, not being completely healed, does tend to revert to the old 'Oh dear, supposing "IT" should return'. I feel good these days but I wonder if it a case of having to accept this feeling for a while? Early days yet I suppose. Relate anyone? Love. jonathan.

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Jonathan you are one of the best people on here to give advice. How would you answer that question if someone else had asked it???. You are a very strong and wise person. I cant relate as you know.

Big hugs and love

lou. xxxx

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Hi. lou. I know! We can give helpful advice but when it comes to ourselves....!

Many thanks for the reply. Love. jonathan.

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So true we can give advice to others. A work others come to me for advice, but have no idea what is going on in my life............................you are a rock on here, good luck on continuing to beat this.

Love Lou xxx

[jaynehale36]

Just like Lou has said, you are a tower of strength to us on here and we must just live for today... dont race ahead.If it does rear it's ugly head then we wil accept it with open arms and move on. We all get these thoughts probably always wil but anxiety is not the monster it is a feeling that we can beat. Stay strong my friend. X

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Hi. jayne. 'Race ahead', we fall for that one don't we? Patience is a virtue that I have not got or so my wife tells me, and she is right (as always). Many thanks. Love . jonathan.

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Hello Jonathan, the one answer that I remember you saying to somebody on here (which was prob me lol) was..........if you're are sitting waiting for it to pounce on you it most certainly will. I think maybe read some of the helpful replies on here.

I know 100% that when I feel good for a few days I think oh where's it gone and it does pop back up eventually and I find myself in a state on here asking for help!

But with all great replies I'm getting there slowly.

All the best xx

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Hello PB. Thanks for your reply. You are so right. With all the help we get on here there is no reason why we can't overcome. I still thank God for guiding me in this direction. Love and best wishes. jontathan.

[ellabella]

Yes we are all vulnerable at some times in our lives and and us more than others as we are waiting for it .Jonathan you are just going through the natural process of doubt, and as long as you recognise this you should come through a little bit stronger. If you don't...it's not the end of the world my friend. You have been so amazing on here and helped so many of us that we are here for you too. This is the one place in the whole world where I have been able to express my worst fears and someone has always been here with helpful advice and encouragement. Yes we are here for you Jonathan...100%. "It" will always probably be lurking around somewhere, but so are all GOOD things as well. The balance is a fine one...we will get there my friend much love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Hi. ella. As always, your help and guidance is invaluable to us all. As you have said in the past, it is all about helping one another. Bless you and Love. jonathan.

[Bramwell]

I can relate to this entirely Johnathan.

Even when I have a Health Anxiety free day I know it's lurking in the back of my mind just waiting for some signal to drop back on me like a trembling black cloak.

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Hi. Bramwell. Many thanks. Isn't 'lurk' a lovely word? It really sums "IT" up! So does a 'black cloak'. (Reminds me of Churchill's 'black dog'). Love and blessings. jonathan.

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In my case "IT' has been lurking much more than usual for the past few weeks and on Friday "IT' stopped lurking and pounced. This was partly because I was due to go to a family member's 21st birthday.

There was no way on earth I could contemplate going to it and in the end I was too ill to go anyway as the anxiety turned into full on physical symptoms.

I hadn't been able to eat for a few days before and I couldn't really feel anything .......the house was freezing but I didn't feel cold. I suppose the symptoms block everything else out.

Anyway I'm now feeling a bit better if tired and a bit depressed. I don't take any medication now apart from having some Valium for emergencies. I'm finding it difficult without the meds, there is a noticeable difference in stability.

My daughter says she can tell how I am from how I react when she gives me a hug, I can't stand any physical contact when I'm anxious and even seeing the word 'hug or love' makes it worse.

Anyway Jonathan .......sorry I've hi-jacked your blog, I just intended to say that I have been pounced on and survived ........it came and it went, I'm still here. I didn't go to the party but there is no point in feeling bad, I would have gone if I could.

We have good and bad times ......good and bad days, we learn a little bit each day, we may help somebody else and we keep going.

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Hi. Penny. You must save a lot on energy bills if you don.t feel the cold!! Seriously, I do feel for you. This rotten complaint throws up all sorts of problems which, at times, seem insurmountable. While I agree that going somewhere where you do not feel comfortable is self defeating. Better not to go than go with gritted teeth. But some effort should be made within the limits of how you feel. You are tired and depressed (depleted) because you have flogged yourself and all your energy has gone. You need time to re-charge your batteries. This may be the time to sit down and rest, well, as much as you can. Making too much effort, forcing yourself, is not a good idea when depleted. However, some effort needs to be made when you feel better. You do not seem the sort who would give up easily, so make another effort when you feel better and try and ACCEPT how you feel for the moment. Have you come off meds too quickly? Perhaps another visit to your GP may help. You have been 'pounced on' and survived. That is a big PLUS in my book. Keep going forward, and let us know how you get on. Love and blessings. jonathan

[lostinspace]

Hi Jonathan and everyone. I'm fairly new to this site and have read more than I have written. I have found your comments and suggestions helpful, especially when I'm having a particularly bad day. I thought I might offer a few self-help suggestions which have helped me. I suffer from health anxiety and have done so on and off for many years. Sometimes I feel I'm getting on top of it, other times it feels like it's getting on top of me. Maybe that's how it's always going to be, I don't know. Here are a couple of things I say to myself on a bad day when I think I have all sorts of things wrong with me: The agony of anticipation is far, far worse than the expected event which may never happen. Fear is more pain than the pain it fears. One symptom, many diseases; one disease, many symptoms. I've been reading a lot of your advice about acceptance, and that helps. CBT is helping, and I feel a bit stronger and able to manage some of my thoughts as a result. I really wish all of you well and hope you can be strong and get through the bad days and enjoy the good ones.

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Welcome to the site and thanks for your blog. I found your words very useful. It is strange but when others put things in a different way they seem to have more meaning. Hope to see you again soon. Regards. jonathan.