Hi, Ive come to this site for ..........support, understanding. Dont get me wrong I have a loving husband,siblings, friends, children (too small to have to take on this burden). But no one who can really know what its like to feel the all consuming sadness and fatigue that makes you consider if even for a moment......What If, all the stress, the tears, the sadness, the falling out with people beacause your so angry with life and yourself, what if all that could end so quickly and easily, all gone. But no because the absolute devestation it would leave behind...............so I feel trapped in this world, and yes I feel guilty for even suggesting such a thing when there are people desperate to hang onto their lives, I'm a nurse so I see the young and the old die. But thats the question whats it all for, all this struggle and pain and sadness, then one day its all over. So sorry to be so bleak, in a bad place at the moment, dont want my children, husband or family to have to suffer the tears, and sadness again, so if I can find a way to 'live' again. Your thoughts would be most welcome.