2 years ago, I agreed for my mother in law to move in with us, albeit a bit hesitant, as she suffers with dementia, my husband (who is a little older than me). My husband gave up his job where we worked together, to be her full time carer and I carried on working. A couple of months after I was told that the Department I worked on was to be outsourced to another company and then we would all be made redundant as the new company were taking the Department to Glasgow. My best friend then left the UK to travel for 3 years and then I was diagnosed with Epilepsy. Found life hard when I was working what with my mother in law becoming more and more demanding and spending very little time with my husband but had my close colleagues of 18 years to support me. Made redundant in May and cannot find the right job, 1st one I left agter only 4 days as they told me I would need to study which I was not told at any of the 3 interviews and was not prepared to study. Shortly after offered another job but the boss was a bully and staff of the team were leaving left, right and centre, hours were very long too, not getting home some nights until 7.30pm, bearing in mind I started at 8.30am and no time for lunch. But with both jobs I woke up in the morning with a constant Anxious feeling, felling of sickness and dread of going into work ad then come the evening even though I was shattered I could not sleep. With the 2nd job I left after 3 weeks as I was so Anxious and Emotional I had to get out, which I did. I want to work but feel scared as I do not want the same happening again. Having counselling which is helping but just feel I have such low self esteem could it be I have been through lots emotionally over the last 2 years and not it is all coming out now which is why I cannot settle in a job. Want a job but cannot bare to feel that Anxious feeling each day, anyone else been in this position? xxxx
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